407. Ideological Manscaping

Sure, go ahead. No. I'm not mad about it, but I f it would make sense if it was got 'cause I've been eating a lot of beef jerky. Well, sometimes I get up in the middle of the night to pee. I'm loosening the sky with diamonds, you know what I mean? I sometimes you say you've put it there and you really haven't. And like now today, like there's all kinds of shit I do now I never would have done before. You couldn't edit what was up. And that is anathema to my way of thinking about the act of creation. And then I started using the ghost thing. Or like in the absence of doctors, we have the emergency room. I hate going to the doctor. And that sounds very funny for this white aging man, this aging, this white senior man to say, I don't want to get deported.

They went fucking Argentina on that guy's ass. I made a very funny joke uh about San Francisco. But then I made that little joke about uh this is a list of fives I put on, I think, wherever, I don't know. Do you think that's a good idea? Actually I feel like my core is pretty cold. Sounded like Eric and his kids. Just delicious. But I'm trying to stay out of the way. I my goal is to m make something and share it every week. Uh I I I was prepared to do that and was about to start doing that when I had a change of heart about what I wanted the challenge to be. Yeah, yeah, no, and it's true, it's like finding your duck. No, I have well first of all like like I don't know like normal doctors are seeming a little I don't know, I don't I don't have a way of saying, so leave out part one.

They give you a pilot's wheel in in the Tesla? But I that doesn't mean I stopped writing. Do you mommy? And as small as that voice is and as cool as the body might be, I'm happy to cue up for that if it at least lets me raise my little paw up in the air and go, this is not this is not like uh what I would like to become our future. all of um no i'm sorry i did it again uh no no no merlin there are a lot of times that i get really annoyed I just I'm thinking a lot about these kinds of things and developing a kind of courage to talk about it that's probably not a good idea. You know what I mean? that like wanted to go to college. of the embarkadur freeway. I don't do it. I fell in my bottom again.

but you made two versions. I'm gonna put it in the notes. Then you could just be somebody who shows up at parties and doesn't do very much. That you were out this weekend and uh saw or last weekend saw a lot of sites. I mean listen, I enjoy African food as much as anybody. But like I do not want to smell that while I'm in bed. Um, he has two. Different I would take a different route. emotionally and mentally legible. put it places and and which of course then kind of leads to the idea of like, well, is it really a thing if nobody else sees it? You should try Adderall. I unsurprisingly. Kissed a lot. bit of a sour puss in the afternoon. I could do that, but I'm s I'm, you know, d chugging red bill red bill mm red buller monster at a four and uh I don't know.

Mm a lot most but m now far fewer people uh don't take stimulants. f focus aid, a le a less fun, you know, one of the things that's like. I I'm sorry, I sound like I'm being defensive. Well, uh no, we can talk about that at another uh time when I actually involved your mother involved. Wait, wait, Ki uh Kia uh Kia We talked about it all rhetoric. Christ. To listen at a big pile of pittle from what I see. Absolutely. That's why I say just. We'll see how it goes. Mike and I have talked about trying to put bacon ray stuff up somewhere and blah blah. Our anticipation of what we can expect as a result of making and sharing something, I think can have an impact on how often we make and share things, if if that doesn't seem too obvious.

Cold cuts for everybody. Mm-hmm. I'm not sure. uh friends used to do, you know, whenever you'd host somebody, you might have dinner or you might have drinks, but you have hors d'oeuvres and then like some sometimes later, like, oh look at I just made uh like it's eleven o'clock and we're playing cards. that like I do now in other places. And he is. Because if you tried harder you would have considered it writing. It's better than it was better then than it is now. And you're like, well, you know, there's a lot of other stuff that's kind of intervening here at this point. I do. Or there are I'm gonna end up basically I end up going to a witch doctor. Because when you go to the emergency room, man, you see all the people who probably didn't have insurance, who got arrested, who didn't want to, you know, like all that stuff.

And as a society, we end up becoming whatever the thing we end up becoming the product of that for which we have optimized. Uh but like oh yeah, so like I'm the white guy and that would never happen to me or you or anybody else, right? Deport that guy. think it was right after the Pope died or or no, it was the first um it was the first Mass Pope Leo had. Uh the country is big. You kind of you look pretty terrible no matter what your answer to that is. 2,000 people arrested a day is much more is the m is the most doable of all those horrible things. f so little cause, even in most especially with m cops being how they are, there's very little that it takes for somebody to get arrested. That's like God sword him out.

Jesus. and in the case of somebody that they've decided that they've decided arbitrarily. Yeah, anyway, they're good uh I I think both concrete examples and give a little bit of insight and perhaps hope of like they are building up these systems, but they are brittle. considered a thing because on F Friday ICE was trying to um like it used to be that and I'm not saying this is good people And I can actually say, quote, it's for my work. Like what if you decided that was your job? I walk around with so much background shame about how different I feel from most people. There's something about the way my mind works that could interest somebody. Civic Center is not downtown. Uh and then that got me thinking.

Mostly you see where there's this, I'll see if I can find this for you. This it's like if somebody was speeding down this part of the road, you would just fly off the end of this thing. That's that's the human can one mess one must imagine Charlie Brown happy. And I thought that w that that's the kind of thing. Terrible shit. Uh what does that mean? Okay, exactly. What? Oh, all right. And then seeing the numbers of people who showed up showed up to protest, Chicago I think, is the lowest of the big cities and we're like, oh a brunch sign if someone made it for me and be like, okay, you put somebody else into this. But it does it does make us feel better and sometimes that's good. Yes. Mm-hmm.

was like make something I don't know. Day. Yeah. Bad idea. uh either one, like I would still sometimes feel like I would get very emotional, which I liked. I mean I'm If I have coffee at four I get weird. And yeah, and less less sad. Like this shit it's fine, but it's for me it's like taking a vitamin C tablet. So I took um Adderall and have been now been taking it. hanger or the whatever you call it, the plane hanger in the film The Aviator, and I am Leonardo DiCaprio picking out Yeah, yes, yes. era though. people correct you, they expect you to look it up. But I'm but the extensive accomplishment I get is when I remember to hit it. Okay. Why would I I r I regret uh starting to list the things I made.

Seem right. And you know, the icky thoughts that you don't want to have right now for me, they are still very much there, but I th they are I didn't put that up. Because you regret do you feel vulnerable about what you put up? They're all often gaming gamer girls who would sit in a bath and then sell their water. You can't just leave out the Benji chapters of Sound and the Fury and think it's going to make any sense. I I I super don't want to get into this. No, everybody, I don't know. I'm not saying you have to go and do long threads for things, but like in the absence of context, one piece of that's not gonna make sense. Like it's you've just prior restrained yourself in some ways. which is candidly very disappointing to me.

But um but something like it was just a picture of like a little kid looking into the toilet and saying, where did my precious gift go? and I'm able to say things like I can tell that this is not reaching the people I would like it to reach and I know the people I'd like it to reach are out there, which is a bummer. You know, I I c I might fall into the toilet and be gone forever. and we are living in so many separate places and sometimes having separate rules is great, but I don't know, it's it's the voice. That is for by and large oh god I can't get into this. are working that muscle working out with that muscle on a regular basis, you will strengthen that muscle whether you want to or not, right?

And so I probably didn't need to drag Aristotle into that, but except to say that I think this is an idea that goes back a really long time, that we're not we're not who we think we are, we're not who we hope we are, we are what we are what we do. or can't afford health insurance, can't afford to go to the doctor or and or like me fucking hate going to the doctor and like despise doctors, despise the entire uh you optimize for carcereal, you know, punishment. of unknown etiology and you're in the hospital for three days. They allowed somebody to be improperly deported fr I can't even get all the words in. When uh uh like, mm, why don't you talk about the thing? little things, the subtle things, the contextual things, phrases.

Yeah, yeah. big place instead of saying yes we are building building this pr prison we are tanzen it's a I mean, uh just to d like tr and to triple underscore that in a later um episode, I think it was this week, the then pff Jesus Christ, is there even like a carbon copy of this that we can find to find out what actually happened? even know existed. Where are your papers? And luckily he happened to have a lawyer and they had he and his wife had prepared for this because of course it's like, Hey lady, so what's the deal with you too? you know, all of the absolutely unhinged things you have to do to escape these monsters. uh just just uh being that body warm or c cold I I c I can never fault anyone for uh uh tr d trying.

Calm down. all of Illinois and California sanctuary states, which means I'm sure that matters a lot to the well exactly. g interesting and, you know, precise ways that y y you can help with th that will Please do. is a mitigating factor in me thinking about what I want to share with people because I think I just want this this is a very small thing, but I've thought And the bottom line in some ways, the thing I want to take away from this is you don't need a reason to make stuff. Which should have been obvious to me all along, but it took me two days into this challenge to go, I think that would be a salutary change for me is to have the courage of my convictions and say whether other people like it or not.

Because she's constantly, I mean, I I never say anything right in our relationship at all. Um according to this video anyway, the biggest mistake San Francisco ever made, people used to say. And then I noticed there's this funny thing. And I made that. Or maybe I'm more interested in having time on my hands than you are. chronological audit and decide whether that's a good use of your resources, but I wouldn't say that because I'm not an asshole. And don't be self-involved enough to think that you have to see people liking it to know that it's good. Well how am I so gagged out? No, I'm sorry, I'm just kidding. where my um I'm doing a lot of stuff with computers right now t-shirt that you and uh Syracuse made.

I don't know, a guy in front of a bunch of things. contribute. Yeah. skills and taste a lot. I'm I'm like the bad news bears of friendship. Yeah I respect your uh lived experience and your feelings ab about that. the soundtrack of n um not Hamilton for once of the musical Next to Normal is in my head. Well, uh there was stuff going on on Friday that's okay to say no. This was uh there there should be some a little bit of context in that uh ice stuff was happening in Chicago on Friday and Saturday A lot of people, um, you know, uh I'm I'm uh I'm one of those many, many bad people cur curse me, um, who is like, I didn't we don't need to be a warm body today, like, all right. Yeah, I that is part of my lived experience.

He makes heat microwaves the most upsetting shit at 6 30 in the morning. Excuse me, I always have things written down, but your things are just usually more interesting. in the way that like we talked about, it was it wasn't a good i it it it wasn't good. Yay, beta! I b I love I love it. Thursday made some decis what I made was some decisions with my uh doctor who uh has been really being like In that's what in twenty twenty three that there was a major shortage. Totally. Teeth clenching. Um a a steering a Tesla steering wheel. Making anything that surprised you or did you notice anything about yourself given the the change of mind or heart in the challenge? I know. And that let me because I didn't get all speedy, unfortunately, I was like, okay, I don't want to put things on the internet because I am afraid of putting I'm always afraid of putting things on the internet and Yeah, and it might also just it might end up yeah, and it might harsher mellow.

Mmm, not just online, but specifically sharing things with people I like and respect like you. People will disagree with me, I but I'll never see it. But there are technical and UI and UX and human reasons why people there's just very little context to almost anything anymore, which might be one reason that people get their best reaction from from blasts of anger that people can agree with. I do feel a resistance about releasing certain kinds of things. the effort. try to decide what the project is, even if it's something dumb. that like the r rules as you would say are s just like a f an interesting constraint But and that's why most of my as you say, you in the New York Times, say uh my takeaways this week were were mostly about ways I'd like to change my attitude about those things.

or that we've kind of experienced not not kind of like we have experienced what I think of as a digital gentrification of a number of spaces I don't know, not what it used to be. Um, that uh partly it was a vibe, like not before we went, but it all turned out fine, it was all great. Another way I've said this in the past on my old website was things like, you know, whether you're not you intend to develop a muscle, if you We are what we frequently do. And like, so that was in that case, this is kind of a bummer, but that was at that point kind of in the service of talking about the ice stuff and saying like if you try to come up with a system that optimizes Minimize interactions about smaller things, to minimize the sort of maintenance care that like would keep a lot of us healthy to like catch cancers before they grow, all that kind of stuff.

Right? because that is what we have begun to optimize for. In a way that the painter probably really would have admired. But it's it's hit me again now. people from your community would just disappear. Normally in America, we don't have an American version of Devil's Island anymore where we just disappear people. Or transitive, I guess. And your contention on that is that you literally cannot bring him back. became widely respected, was doing things like that. Anyway, you know, you don't always want to make things and then put it out because people will think you're silly. B and that is something that you just need to recognize. Episodes, actually. on an ice raid and uh they covered not just, you know, the the h horrifying things that happened, but the logistics that have built that have been built up In that do they is it that they don't know where the guy is?

Daly had um one of their reporters particip m not participate, but like ride along in just the past two years. how the justice process works. Deportures, what's the word? weren't in Mexico. And uh uh again, uh he probably won't be deported, but he has now been arrested and as of uh today or yesterday, still in jail. In Chicago the on Friday people were showing. not just make you feel better, but uh make your neighbors feel better. Probably to some people. That says, I'm a guy who makes stuff. freeway, um which is this crazy freeway that was damaged during the eighty nine earthquake and they tore it down and as somebody who's only lived here after that was torn down, it's mine if you you look up uh Embarcadero Freeway, it's it was this real eyesore.

For no one, right? And I just I love this image because you see it's I like the composition of this image. And um This doesn't look r real. And I'm gonna try and feel less discouraged about wondering well certainly I've gotta get over the thing of feeling discouraged about like is it worthwhile? Yeah, it's probably better for me. Did you make a sign? Uh signs that said we uh um we could be or I could be at brunch right now. Oh, I'm I'm so convinced. I'm very self-conscious about things like that. lived experience that um people do not like the smell of a bag of beef jerky in an automobile is something I've been told I So yet another one of my foods I'm not allowed to enjoy in the car. Uh wait, let me think for a minute.

Oh yeah. Uh yes. Because it's so it does so little for me to help this is so beautiful. In in the Nymax. the uh whatever the steer I guess it's not a steering wheel, whatever uh handle. No. I haven't uh I haven't heard the ads for log P so I'm just gonna log or no, it's not called log P is it? I'm handing you the yoke steering wheel because you've written things down. Like you know, if you're if you are feeling good about what you're doing, I I'm I'm not trying to be negative about this, but like for example, I sent you a music thing yesterday. Like I think of it more like, you know, oh here's like here's like a little thing I made for you. Is it as dirty as the It was dirty for the time they they Catherine Deneuve gets tied up in it and stuff.

Um, I mean obviously I still miss things about Twitter so, so, so much. impossibly subtle in some cases. It's it's I don't think it was uh it was like just one of his like multiple panels like here's what it's like to be it's probably from like childhood as hell There it's it's harder than ever to find the people. innumerable, very good, very cromulent reasons to just not share anything anymore. And that is mostly gone. It shouldn't it oughtn't surprise us when a system that's set up to do one kind of thing efficiently uh ends up sweeping up a lot of other stuff. that was never intended to be part of that particular efficient system. Because we've optimized for a different kind of system. Um, you know, the prison magnate.

Yeah, but it's like, yeah, Joan, what we really need to do, you're making it harder for me to have my prisons. I mean partly because he that's how he makes all a lot of his money. having his day in court or whatever without any kind of uh, you know, system. You know, and at the point when the President of the United States says we've I mean the the the sum the the one of the things I I I hope has upset other people as much as me is just this little fact, which is like officially finished the book and the series is finished. only made more frustrating by then saying, well, you know, actually, we could bring them back, but we're not gonna. But the and just minimized it and so push back like oh well why can't you fix it?

But which was like a uh which was really highlighted in a way that's a lot of people. Stephen about how Stephen Miller came to their offices who's like, all right, let's find a way, let's use all the Unsure whether or not his visa status had expired. I uh l I do like to see the cringe like we could be at brunch right now. The well there's I mean that once again, n nuances. I thought it was kind of neat to think like, well, what if what if I had a a change in a completely unnecessary change in attitude? We'll workshop it. What a gift. I s oh no, you did the thing where I s you said a word and now I don't think that's the signs, Alex. See I'm gonna trick you in I'm gonna trick you into being the driver.

You don't keep your you don't keep a candle under a bushel basket, you know what I mean? And because I would I would not be sleep. never did anything l l literally just did absolutely nothing. I am Leonardo DeCabriator in the Aviator. Stimulants. Yes. Yeah. in that the in the infancy of a an idea a notion of an idea if you're like self-editing before you've even But, you know, you hey mom, you know, it took me a lot of effort 'cause I I do still believe sounds like something John Mullaney would say. I feel very heavily judged when I go to a doctor, for example. So like that's why I said to Madeline, you know, I mentioned this to Roderick, but like I said, I don't want to get deported. are not who I want us to be.

The well the courage though, the genuine courage though is talking about it in a way that is different and makes people uncomfortable. He comes out of his apartment, arrest him, and then talk to his brother, who they ha didn't and not sustainable if people do not cooperate and if those resources are shared. That's how the weekend uh felt. I have this unearned probably belief that I hope the way I am is interesting to somebody and not just as a train wreck. I don't know. just being mad in a way that's not particularly creative? You know, you know, so it's like when people say you have too much time on your hands, which I think you should be able to eradicate anyone on site who ever says to you, you have too much time on your hands.

The the that weren't funny. One of the stereotypes that I do still find a little bit funny is the gigantic um chump like yeah, yeah, I kinda like it still. Oh. The well I I had taken Adderall before and really but I had taken it without any other has been amazing because the like logging okay. I know and I'm but I've got to be a good thing. Okay, what? So good. our anticipation of I think one way to put it hopefully neutral but That's someone's special thing. This week has been a very 43 folders week. Because you didn't really make anything. I'm surprised you said people are disag or sometimes disagree with you about that because a lot of people um having probably less uh uh less uh uh uh I'm doing the chicken problem.

During that v very episode, they start go on a raid and they're like, Yeah, this guy has some sort of Shh and it's gotta keep it you don't need to literally call her kitty out loud. of the highway. Now, that's not a type specimen, really, but anybody who knows would know and would get it and go, that's funny, because he's using the font called San Francisco to make fun of San Francisco, which deserves to be made fun of. Yeah. Cause I've been monopolizing a lot of everything for the last fifty-eight years and and I didn't want to make it worse. Say again. Not that I can see, but you know, it could be out there. Do you you get the immediate release or the extended release at four in the afternoon?

I um I have still been logging my P. Oh, I was gonna say mind-ishness, but years was real and sound too much more. Her name is Bell Epoke. that has them look at themselves in a different light. We ac uh my wife and I actually had indeed had friendly words like we always do about what neighborhood something in San Francisco is. And they've got like little like uh you know, you can't go beyond this point. Okay. I started to make a little because I was trying to track all the stuff I was making, but I hated how sweaty that was, even after one morning. What betas do you have installed? Medication. you can be really overwhelming, but then the side effects can be pretty rough for you. I'm no no my bulk I'm calling them the hanger picking out the The perfect steering wheel.

Because if I get a pop-up and it says it's been four hours since you last log beat, I go, no, that's not accurate. I was talking to my lady friend about this. medical industrial complex that you have to deal with. Look I'm I'm hiding the Franks in my bookcase. It's like you don't get fucked. Uh I'm doing great although I do feel disloyal because usually today I Um so I didn't I'm gonna act like I didn't prepare at all. Interesting. I'm handing over the steering wheel. I was like, oh I guess it means I m m might. constantly jamming whatever just happened into the public eye, which I don't see as being exactly the same thing. although we can very fairly and truly and say lit Twitter Twitter's led to a world where context is notably missing from a lot of stuff in life.

Subtlety in context is not is not selling a lot right now. I don't know. But I mean there's stuff like there's stuff like I I I don't know why it comes to my butt see I don't know d deviant art Reddit like I don't know. Like what what what culture have you built, let alone what procedures? to help them prepare for this before it happens. It's yeah. Bad bad idea. Which is why m my prescription is for twice a day. There we go. The the rules there are rules and the rules are you must shout and have a very binary uh opinion and it's Um it will tend to be but the way I put it is to grossly misquote Aristotle by saying we are what we frequently do. Uh ICE would specifically go to jails in counties that weren't considered uh sanctuary city uh cities or counties and in the case of Like you won't have to like watch a baby at the last minute.

As you should. Like I I think nineteen. It is it's like yes, it's a mindfulness is not the right word for it, but a presence I would say presence of mind exercise. Sometimes d there's no point and also sometimes you really want to talk about the vulnerabilities and the terrifying things that are happening and why it is not a good thing. This is the kind of thing that I do. You're I was not expecting such vulnerability today and it made me Jesus Christ, Alex. I'm the hero. So I saw one that I I I thought was pretty funny. Um, but I'm just you know, I've I'm glad, you know, about how everything's going. This is this is a new this is a new new era. Which I now do because LogP is like, hmm, been four hours.

Absolutely. And so, but the problem is like if we don't have those relationships, and just in that dumb little three-minute rant, there's 60 ways that's fucking complicated. Oh, like a deportee, basically? Here the kids. You're an option. And you're like, yay, cold cuts, mom. Ideological manscaping. Do you realize how hard it was for me to make that Duke? If I go to the if I go to the doctor, I'm gonna get yelled at and I'm either gonna get funneled to the science-y part where they go and they do x-rays and ask me like what you know how Perfect. I mean like the there's the effects and there's the side effects, and they can both be really profound. Um well uh uh as I described it uh genuinely as I was describing it, I'm like, oh, okay, so the bad scaries and hallucinations What have you just said from now on?

What was my path to getting to that? I'm just guessing. Your officer in the first one. What? Yeah, I thought that my ha ha happy Adderall would make me happy and productive and instead it just made me feel better and like myself. I feel like people argue with me about this, but the problem with threads and people look at me like a like a dog trying to figure out badminton. Huh, but it happens. And Vance was once again at the Vatican and had an interview. Uh is uh is um you're saying I uh I need to stand in my truth? And I'm making a big show about it. Stimulants in my experience dry me out a little bit. And I uh I didn't peanut butter. Oh my god. Boxins. That alone is like, okay, I enjoy that.

Do you think that's a a bad thing, though? Uh one was the interview with Vance where he says what seems like a practical thing of yes. And that and so I made a little list of fives, which is the thing that people used to like. And then I was just looking at that this awesome photo of the Embarcadero Freeway and I noticed this hilarious thing where like I zoomed in on it. No, no. Everybody's different, you know? I mean, I don't put a lot of stuff up because like first of all it's a lot of work sometimes. And I'm not saying I need that many out of boys, but like uh anyways, that's there's all there are I love you, Marilyn. They weren't looking into him whatsoever and just start talking to him and like, oh, uh w uh basically a So I'm in the Army National Guard now.

That's what I yeah, I want to be like a backup I I want to be the backup spouse. I know you're afraid of it. Have a lot of i friends who are have s really severe ADHD and or are autistic and they were like, you know, hoarding. No don't so okay. I was making stuff and which wh I'm doing anyway. And I said, you know what? What led you to was it really thinking about the challenge that led you to realize this? Oh, if I don't get any better friends, I'll I'll just up I'll just end up going to you. Yeah. I'd try out a different route, like going into the challenge straight away. I was like, this might be fun. Well no, I'm just glad with the Adderall. You know what I mean? But I don't know. Yeah. We're going to make mistakes.

What? You would need to stand in your power and like Billy. F not because I'm mad at anybody or anything, but just because like all the stuff that was making my brain feel normal is dissipating. Oh, see I shouldn't put it No, I I take it. And then I was like, man, I really want to do the ghost thing. It just means I've stopped writing in a way that turns into things that I share with other people because I don't think there's much of an audience for it. And uh then they arrest him because they're not sure. So and because there are, you know, uh concrete uh I'm not dissing your sign unless it's ugly and not bad. That's why I take so many baths. What betas do you do you have any betas installed?

Yeah, probably. Um, whereas if I take it three, four, five, I'm fine going back to sleep. So it's so I sent you a music thing yesterday and like uh you know because you know I'm working on it Just like I guess a lot of people have a uh I'm gonna do a headline. The kids are going by. Have you ever seen so like you know that you know in um did you ever see Asteroid City? You're so gagged out on Adderall right now. And uh the a command key, bud's heading rectifs. Okay. Let me try to remember what the challenge is. Like they are just there. Like w I have disappeared, that person. One I think has a very simplistic, beautiful design, which is just, you know, uh, I don't know if it i I think it's the Chicago or monospace font.

Um uh exactly. Yeah. Yeah. And it's it's really it's just almost like a kind of like ideological manscaping. We're not what we say we are. You'd have to follow so much shit to understand what the fuck I mean here. And so but what I was saying to myself, I said you don't you don't need a reason to make stuff and it doesn't have to be for your work. I'm not I don't have anything prepared. Yeah. Her name is Belle and the Beast. Um, there's a I think of a pain, a panel in an old uh Life is Hell comic. I am the one that's a good thing. Nobody likes bologna in the face. Uh uh There are places well, uh those exist, but like you s kind of mentioned I cleaned it up a little bit. I'm not one a lot of people choose, but the ones who do I really love and appreciate.

Exactly. Here's my conspiracy. Like you probably just scribbled things that probably don't make a lot of sense to anybody, including yourself. Like you gotta you gotta just wait and eventually it'll come to you. Like sometimes I pee twice in a night, but mostly like at some point between going to bed and officially being out of bed I have to pee. I'm getting shit done. There's all that kind of stuff where we knew what we were in for, and I was proud of what I had written on Twitter. It's like I realize that's a dramatization, but would you imagine when you were a little kid that like Not every night, but definitely like at some point in the sort of early morning time usually. But um uh to me the the the the big thing that makes the drives me out uh for obvious reasons I feel like is Imodium but um I also think it helps to drink a lot of water when you're having I still love I love the voice.

They don't want 2000, well, they might want or desire or fantasize about 2000 deport Which it always has been. Well, probably shorter than that. Suddenly I have a lot more permission to do that, but you have to you have to feel like it's okay to make stuff. I love it. I don't know what that means. I mean, like sometimes there are people who are who are on like I imagine like on fucking Instagram who are like, oh look, I just I took another shit. We're watching The Handmaid's Tale from the beginning. And that's how the beginning of you and Roderick talking about that just it just and I was kidding made a sign that just made me smile. I think I mean the. Sorry, he's gone. You know what? I didn't make a sign.

It's a delicious treat. They might as well have just dro dropped him out of a plane or a helicopter. Yeah, and later that day, the same thing happened. That was Saturday, and then we went to the protest. What do you do have anything written down for today? Oh, uh to go to the I didn't finish I didn't listen to all of it. One thing also could have been like m just start making a bunch of stuff and like put some stuff out, even if you don't, you know, do it every Show floor. It wasn't. Guys, you can't come in here. And then if I were to operationalize that, what might that look like in a month? This is this is me. And I take so much stuff down because th then and then it feels like I have not made anything.

Now there's several things about that that are funny. If someone ha hands me one, I'm like, all right, I'm I'm I'm a I'll be a safe your safety sign person. Yeah. I'm making a big show about how I'm trying to stay out of it. I mean, first of all, anything I took at four o'clock, good night, nurse. I can't tell if this is Fury Road? Um Twitter, I think people understood Twitter. Because I don't think the I don't think people will see this and if they do see it, they won't understand it. And whether that's good, bad, or indifferent, I just think it's fair to say based on my experience anyway. And it's not what I want us to frequently do. That it's uh that's really frustrating to me. Um my work is whatever I say it is, but I don't have the courage of my convictions sometimes.

Who has well that's that I was gonna say, who has more taste? People get busy. Weren't funny, weren't clever. I don't I don't need to know. Like it's very hard to understand the context for things nowadays. Um what if for the sake of argument, just by fiat, you said that from now on, I think this might actually be true, but go with me. You take this really sharp kind of curve around the embarcadero. Common cause is a good thing. You finally have time to listen to a podcast that only two months. The uh it works though because you can it it shall be a good idea. So please just take this for what I want to say about this and let's not turn this into the topic. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, it was hard. It took me five minutes to just explain it.

I listen, I I'm still fell on my bottom. Uh that's that's a reference I was trying to make and then as I was saying it I didn't understand. But Yeah, there's a lot of really neat stuff. 5,000 words. We're like, seriously, like I'm the only person who can possibly understand this cryptic message. I was very concerned about going to the protest on Saturday. And she's like, what do you mean? Yep. And then the President of the United States States says, there's no way to bring them back. I'm all good. I don't know Tuesday, Wednesday. You might need to make a sign. I post things in two different places. What the fuck does that mean? Or I might have a prolapse and it would suck my butt. Don't don't at me.

I just I fuck people up. Was it hot was it hot Saturday? I I'm done. I think so. And for better or worse, I did. No, I'm talking about a little kid. You're allowed to make and potentially share whatever you feel like making and whatever you think is worth sharing. Anyway, I'm wearing Syracuse's shirt today, not yours. It's uh but if I if I drove, I would take a different And everybody's excited. And then to just seem like you either don't care about it or think it's funny is a bummer to me. I used to crash so hard in the afternoon. New new era. I did some stuff regarding Queen. You can keep in a glove box and it won't go bad. I enjoy Chilean food as much as anybody. They're not dominating a headspace and I am not focusing on them as much as I even realized I had.

But I think he also just thinks it's fun and neat. Okay, well, bring him back. It's like 'cause there are things to do about the things and We we declare this a no bad vibe zone. You don't even know what you're saying. I think it smells something like a cumin or there's a lot of those those sorts of spices that I super enjoy. No, not not at all. Shit, you can get a prescription for Adderall? Yes. And because sometimes it feels like there's not really a place for it. I'm not going to go into it now, but like, hey, you know, uh thanks Madeline. I just I have trouble figuring out who that could potentially connect with. Well, but but that's the thing. Oh yeah, yeah. I added the words San Francisco and San Francisco display bold.

Well yeah, but I mean like, well maybe I just I just am better with it than you are. They didn't know you were even capable of it. I mean, it's not a not whether it's like true or not or whatever, but like I thought it was funny. Nothing that bad happened, but like it was the equivalent of riding on trains all night. I didn't really say very much. If that guy could just be in the wrong place at the wrong time and disappear, what w that can happen to anybody. Or that we don't know? But it wouldn't be it wouldn't be creative. But I I I thought that I uh uh r uh really didn't want this because uh you know And I just I didn't get the sense that anybody was really that into it. I end up going to a medievalist.

I saw a lot of signs. Yeah. Yeah. Like that's that's really a bummer. It doesn't. I think I hurt my foot a little bit. You ever read him? So it's not the logging, it's the remembering to log. It's okay. Which was not super duper fun, but a system that's optimized to to It's really it's really frustrating. Deport what do you call that? I'm almost there. You know what I mean? I I love when you prepare. I didn't specify I just heard from um you and John Syracuse. Are you a sign making person in general? I saw like eight to sixteen signs that I thought were very funny. Oh, I mean again that is part of my lived experience. I'm like clenching my teeth at ten o'clock, you know? Yeah, like like like like my stuff, like Vive Ants.

Yes. But anyway, he had just found this old compilation cassette we did. We're not what we believe we are. And with the daughter that marries Jonah. But do you see what I'm saying? So I'm just I'm going along and getting along. Oh, these are b oh these don't look this one. Yeah, but what if I don't have any side effects? You didn't prepare anything offline and then give a finished product to somebody. Another another phrase like you hear mostly like our developer friends use, but I think this is a good phrase for lots of things. Is that we the things that we are optimizing for It's just in the no rights group. You know what I mean? Trying so much harder to get better at it. I'm I'm s picking a steering wheel.

Her name is um Rock the Bell. Yes. I love hearing voices that I love, usually in writing that I love. And I was like, well, like there's a lot of people who don't have health insurance. Well then it oughtn't be surprising that that's where that kind of stuff goes. And they're like, is that is that a quota? But there's just this image that I thought was so goddamn funny. I know you did. Who never realizes that like somebody's always pulling the chair out from behind him or something. Yes. And uh it for the other. Just grip it and rip it. Don't they have a yoke? We have a way to deport people, but they didn't deport the guy legally. I've never seen below decks. No, this is it's so I'm sorry, just real quick.

Um the doing kind of an antonym game. I I don't want an attaboy, but I miss the hey buddies. And if it's no procedures, that's gonna be rough because if you don't have anybody to tell you, hey, that's not really a procedure. Do you do you hear do you hear what you sound like right now? It's it's warm over there. But like a little like we'd be like, well, do you know how okay, all right. I'm a big fat meaty divorced guy. You see the curve of the regular embarcadero freeway, but then you see this thing where it's just like, oh shit, like I mean at best it was a word joke, you know, melting ice and stuff. Don't you just f fe it's a little accomplishment whenever something pops up. I enjoyed not l feeling as crazy.

And how am I any different from Abrego Abrego Garcia in that particular way? Yeah, and they go and they've already been putting resources into following him and Oh I know. Like if I believe it works, I guess I can make it work, but it does not it does not lift me up into the heavens after twenty-seven minutes like certain other drugs I can think of. And it's like, but you know, you wouldn't want to just go, hey, I went to the store and throw a baloney at somebody. I'm just saying words now. And, you know, maybe putting on makeup and and kicking up our heels is is not Maybe I'm maybe I'm going through some turning into Howard Beal or something at this point, but like First of all, it's got that bit, it's for my work, you know, our old bit.

And then what I did was I added that font to it in that typeface, and the joke I made was And that god that that's dumb. I have all of them installed. Z Lind uh I know I was listening at two X. No, because I'm logging my P. Ooh. I feel like a child afraid of putting things online. I know, because I can always do that. And then I have to smell that. I just haven't found found it yet. In my experience anyway, I'll speak for myself. And so I don't know. And he comes home, his wife and his kid are in the car. I feel very ashamed of how different I am from most people and I there's always something to correct me on. That sounds like an antidepressant. Yeah. You've got there's there's got to be some continuity of how this stuff all goes together and there's a timeline.

And I thought the skeleton key to things like that would be stuff like, well, I got a ghost thing. That didn't make a ton of sense. They are they don't exist anymore. B asn't, oh yeah, the guy disappeared. You'll understand everybody better. It's only been it's like a like uh like in those Elon Musk cars, they have those, don't they? Bologna. I delete things that I didn't think are good enough. Except it would. And you know that bumps me out. You're not a primary friend. The challenge this week is to um the original challenge I believe was make something every day. Do you even have a bushel basket? So you're in your adderall era. The only time I feel well, there's sometimes I feel bad about it, but if I'm being honest, the only time I feel really like sad about it is when I think this is not worth And it's like, oh man, there's there's not is not a good answer to that that's gonna make you look good.

But well no, I know that's saying something. You won't have to like pick somebody up at the airport. Nah, I not well I don't know. And I honestly think one part of it I I We're paying for it. It's only funny to me unless it's funny to somebody else. The few times I d do have to Was it hot? And I'm I am in the the fucking hangar in the aviator and the other. Oh my god. I was just trying to help you. Uh, we can't bring him back. Yes. Because like you're not gonna get 2,000 people deported a day. They're waiting for this p kid who might have I don't think it was uh k a kid, but a student who they were just Well, there these are all things that you could chose you could choose to give yourself a little uh I ooh, uh is that uh uh any reason any reason for that?

Uh the goal was to f for me, the uh I'm s again, I'm you I realized I was using goal. I so overwhelmingly have what? I've that's a good thing. The feeling the apprehension about Uh No, the man escaping. Um, is that if you find yourself self-editing while it's still So I don't like going to the doctor. Which it hit pretty hard when we watched it. And that really frustrated me to hear that, which was And uh that is what, you know, this um Um, playlists. No, I like mind-ishness. Your your uh uh your vibes is a dirty movie. What's the noun form of that? You know what didn't even occur to me. You might n want to be a signed person. I say I m in the flight Did you ever look into kias? And also it's like this does get to what I really like and want to take away from the challenge.

Like I don't know. He just likes making prisons and filling them up. This is Do by Friday, a weekly challenge podcast with Alex Cox and Merlin Mann. X R I R Uh I I R Okay. I do. But like and I was just saying, uh, okay, let me just rant for a minute. God damn. But then I was thinking about I was watching a video about the destruction, I was reading about neighborhoods, and then that led me to a really good video about the destruction of the embarcadero. And guys. Oh, that that is exactly what I want. And uh and then we we came home and then I rested for three days. Um But I'm in the driver's seat. I think the threads were easier to understand. By me or you, I mean everyone or anyone. What we used to call like checking your privilege, but now it's kinda like realizing like, oh yeah, there's So like m maybe, you know, probably in a way that might be illegal soon.

And I made a funny list of fives. I didn't make a sign. Do you like making a sign for things? The effects that are there to help Sydney Sweeney, I believe, is uh stealing the valor of the older bathwater girls who used to sell Hello people Happy Boop Hello Hello, how are you, Merlin Man? But if you're not, I uh I want to ask about signs and I just I I didn't want to seem like I wasn't interested. Uh you can have it around your house. Trying to play in the space and I You're not used to this. Like, oh yeah, it has been four hours. Uh and a yoke is not a yoke, because a yoke is what you put onto oxen, or as you say, oxen's. I tried really, really hard to entertain people with a hundred and forty characters.

I I have this I have this I have this feeling my what can I say something? It's not what I want us to optimize for Yeah. In Chicago, the No Kings protest wasn't like So you can see I've made it took this image. Sometimes people will eat your food when you're not there. I'll talk about anything you want and I'll if you want I can also suggest more things to talk about. Oh so you have it on your regular phone? It does so little to help my actual problem, but so much to disrupt my sleep if I get it wrong. It's always so bologna in the face. And you're like, that's really not the way the United States He's like, just do use as much as possible. Like what if I gave myself I like got myself an official little badge?

But it would say something on it like, but I'm the making things, boy. Does that help? Oh, that no, that's where we should that shit. You're a safety friend. Um, y yes. I know because a lot of Really? Log a lot of stuff a lot of the time. I do. Oh my gosh. I'm not really looking for a solution for this. Shh um This could I could I see some paperwork on that? Doesn't matter. I can always do it. Was it hot that day? I wanna know what you've written down so badly. And then, you know, now with the Adderall, 27 minutes after an Adderall. It would. We don't drop people out of helicopters. We gave them six million dollars for this. And for for for the great majority of the United States that doesn't understand You can arrest them for fucking anything.

It's got a boat in the background. I try to drink extra water is what I'm saying. That's why you never see anything that I put on any website because Yeah, no, it's not a good thing. Improperly deported from the United States States without real cause, but especially without any kind of um Um what I wrote down on Saturday morning uh was I love that I finally feel free to make stuff Yeah, I was like, you know what? Oh, have you had Adderall today? So I'll I'll hit it kind of just, you know, because I'm sure I've had one since then. I uh but look what I did. I will end up going to somebody who figures out if I'm if I got how I am, what is the moral hazard that led to that? That's what the comptroller guy who got arrested, the New York Comptroller guy was saying yesterday.

Ready, let's do it. If you let Sherman Tanz like run the system, everything turns into a prison. That's good. Um or Thank you. Like, you know, just keep all the people to soccer stadium. When you deport somebody Well now we're talking here, having this great conversation. And yeah. So I made that. Who am I to say? No no no no. It was an aspirational vegetable. But five ants, doo doo, doo, doo I'm fine. Oh I thought you were sending me a screenshot of something. I wear a mask because I'm brave. Exactly. But when you get a wackadoo Trader Joe's frozen meal and you cook it while while Daddy's still in bed Part two, isn't it really hard to get now? Okay. I I uh I I wish I have to log things. Oh no, I'd like to hear more about that.

Like it's just easier to like keep this to myself. I mean that's that's a form of like existential prior restraint. It's like well because America's a Uh it it I'm sorry, it's mean, but it's it's funny. You sound completely insane. She's not that. Oh, yeah. I mean there's a place where there's places where people share stuff, fan fiction sites, right? But you've seen things where like suddenly there's an abrupt ending to a highway. Have you spent any of the last week just Uh and then there's this cockamami big old design of Yeah. We are what we do, a ser, what we make and what we do. I really do not want to get deported. And you know what else? What uh uh really broke me was Vance doing an interview.

I mean, again, not a great place for a freeway, but um It's always there and I don't do it. I will still I'm gonna still try to kick the football. How many brunch signs did you see? Yes, you need to you know you can't The sign will remind him that he's what a fuck up he is, huh? Like what's something you wrote down for today? I have a whole lot of it now. I like getting emotional. Immediate release. Um, but I would, oh boy, would I ever have sleep problems if I was taking that at four. You ever look into those birds from New Zealand? They are gone. I would, I would. That's I was like, no, that's th that wouldn't make me happy. You don't know. Pretty tough, I think, for the people around you as well.

Like, um, I usually have to I enjoyed Yeah, I know. So, why do I say all that? Wait a minute. But, you know, Would that be useful for you? Exactly. What Because you guys get hot and cold there. Like you came over and hung out. That's that was the whole the the whole thing, really. I was I've been working on the Wisdom Project again. Including things like, no, that's not act, Church Street is not in the Castro. 58. Yeah, around like four thirty. I'm on speed, pretty not on speed, but like what I'm saying. It's yeah, it's not it's supposed to be a f Steering wheel off a hangar. Um these don't look good at all. It starts to feel like, you know, you're like you're getting toward the end, the third act of cabaret.

So then what happens? Which is right. So then I'll Billy. I am uh uh the Like I know a lot of people just love going to the doctor and they're they're great, they're good patients and all that kind of stuff. Yeah. I wanna be I although much better much Fish fish rots from the head down but but men freeze from the uh inside out. I did so pleasant. That doesn't seem fair. Yeah, I missed the days of Twitter where where we all understood the rules. But that's not how I am. And you go, okay, well And within reason, you don't need a reason to share what you've made with people. I like I'm just asking I like making a man eating 'em. But I that's what I took it to mean too, kind of. I know, and I'm writing them down.

Now, other people out there may not be proud of what they wrote on Twitter or even consider it writing, and that's where we differ. I'm the Merlin today. Uh it's okay. Oh, even less. Because I am a freak who also l logs everything, including what I uh drink, it As they say. It's mind-ishable. And I am all about subtlety in context. I made this Duke and then you hit the button and now I got no Duke anymore. I still feel the shame of like you don't have a real job or you don't do a real thing. Exactly. And not everybody likes jerky. You know, like your love of the Lord. But somebody else might, you know? And I played it off legit and I was cool about it. They disappeared him. Oh no. A lot of times that'll be three, four, five in the morning, and then I go back to bed, and that's when I take viance.

Make it copy. And um, but like, I mean But like if you get good at like I love Sherman Tan Sher Sherman Tanz, whatever that guy is in the later seasons of Veeep. No, I know nothing wrong with that. But like making my break from Twitter was harder than I expected. Whoopsie diopsy. I mean we we each contribute as much as our Because I saw you know I No no cumin until at l at least noon. Okay. Um, because I make a lot of stuff. Um Oh man. I'm very into it. I think deleting stuff was considered weird for a long time. Sorry. So on the one hand, then they they say, well, you know, that was that was uh unin like we didn't mean to So you illegally deported somebody I'm very happy you said They're in the no rights group.

And then I was thinking about San Francisco because we were gonna go to the protest, so go bear with me on this 58? But the problem is I also saw thousands of signs that weren't. Yes. Here's the yoke. I'm like, no, people don't understand threads. Thanks for reminding me we've got great insurance. You're doing better at this than I am. So Like somebody else is going to carry a lot of that load. Or in the w uh s sensible no. You've named the app after the button. I'm just gonna say this. That's a thing that happened in Argentina. You're so gacked out. Like there's just stuff that I would never have done for ten years on Twitter. And that shouldn't matter. I zoomed in on that photo and zoomed in on just a little part.

And that's that's what it means to be a cook. I Yeah. Um, but I I just the the sides that are cringe, I Well it depends. And basically I'm gonna walk away just giving myself a little chuck on the arm and saying, It's okay, Tiger. No I didn't. Tuesday uh not Tuesday. Immediate release. I can't listen to things at normal speed. Because you need You're not even gonna get 2,000 people like convicted of something a day. Yes. You you ate a lot of metamucil as a child, fine. A, I don't want to get deported. And yet, and yet and yet my kid every morning when he gets up to like make his lunch for work I mean like as in like to to source as they say, isn't it hard to find out of all consistently now? Yeah, even with IR, uh IR and XR.

I do. Well you get hap- you get you get acute hepatitis A. Yes. But like it's also kind of funny because like uh my work is whatever I say it is. I don't do it. 58. Oh shit. I adore it. And previously I'd been on um Adamoxetine, which Yes. Well, what did you um we could also just we could talk about it on any level, but did you find yourself Here's a picture. And I know I like to shit on them a lot, but I'm going to mention two really good daily I should totally arrest you too. So now And I did a little detail. That is th thank you. You're saying it with my with my son who's uh who's just started his second summer job this morning Challenge. You won't understand me better. Like talk about that.

And I am compulsive about the need to do that and sometimes less compulsive about the need to share it. You know what? It was like if Kamla won, we'd all be a brunch right now. Like yeah, you know, it wasn't big deal. I shouldn't say that was hurtful. I don't agree with that. But I'm happy to share that, and that counts. No, what? I don't know if you know that. I wish more people would get emotional. Yes. So I don't I don't have an answer to that. It's not that I want to it's not the me part of it that's interesting. But like for example, here's a quickie from Saturday morning. I want to say uh music lyrics. You couldn't have asked for a more pleasant day to just walk slowly for a little while Does Nay know what it's like to try and have to show have the show make sense?

Yeah. It's been and you also have people have sound when you're recording. Yes. The the the the the turny turn. I enjoy you too. It doesn't help at all that we are currently watching now that Billy has a I can just read my letter. Call them alpine parrots. Who's that? No, no, I'm I'm not. They're very good. I I think I said to my wife that at first she really she screwed up her face a little. But you know where you see that? Yes, it's less likely you'll be deported, but uh it doesn't matter because you could And it's like, oh my God, you fucking you fucking chuds. How many what? What's something you wrote down for today? Okay. Well at some point, maybe in the after show or somewhere else, I want to talk about some beta stuff And that's what worries me.

They don't like during that we just don't know about whatever, man. Something like that. I'm not really a sign guy. Rather than trying to rack up a big scoreboard for how many things I posted on the internet. It'll work out. You're my safety friend. Yes. So anyway, to your point though, and I think my point Um Mm-hmm. And I can tell you from experience I do still believe that I could fall into the toilet and be flushed away, just like my goldfish goober. Or six months or whatever? Really? Do you know what I mean? I'm not looking for consolation about this. Which is like the again, what you've what you've organized for, what you've optimized for, what you've You could help Oh come on, really Oh, it was the change.

I love it. Uh Like, you know, and like you could just be like I understand. Okay, E It's just called P. It gets hot and it gets cold. But that's Yes. And I said, I make my own type specimens. I am I'm s I'm also still in my Corvid. Well, especially if I remember to do it. And if people don't like it, that's okay. I will hold I would hold And you know, it it's like a caffeine crash or a sugar crash in some ways. This is something my my grandparents and parents Don't cry for me, Argentina. But um You see one when you wake up and one at lunch? I'm standing in my power. It's understandishable. But as I mentioned to Roderick, I I had a lot of concerns about safety. I just don't I shouldn't say. I didn't know.

People the phrase they use was an intransitive verb, that person has been disappeared. J But after show. Does that help? It's not at all. It's a dirty movie. Uh but there are uh I zoomed in on this image and zoomed in on this little part. I don't have time to enjoy anything. The fucking emergency room. And it wasn't even for a reason, let alone if it's fr it's not even Vince Foster, you know what I'm saying? Mm-hmm. Yee me Did you have Adderall l previous weeks? You ever look into those? But B, that's why we're protesting. No, I know. Um Cheeto Man bad kind of stuff, you know. Oh no, Just urinate and go right back to sleep. Like as I s I you know, but I was saying, you know Well that requires a trust in the system that makes you want to go there Um I mean I'm burn I'm not that committed.

It's all fine, you know, and um Aren't people ma isn't John Circuson mad because they give you uh People don't see threads. Anybody could get deported. Crazy, very savory sometimes, right? Oh sure. Um, but uh also like then sometimes I would just be kind of like a sour And I was just there to be a warm body, you know. Yeah, you would you would be you'd be listening to homonym bordering. Uh Hey be sure and let your doctor know the Adderalls it's fucking great. Like I see people not Like whatever you optimize for It kinda It's funny. That's how I feel sometimes. I didn't even get I didn't even get a I didn't get an attaboy. There's places where people make things and share it, but that's That's who we are, in my opinion.

I still think it's worth it to try. Do Spectrum people take the take Adderall too? And I liked the fact that it was a knowable thing and But then there's the other part, kind of, that I think m might be more what you're saying, like And Yep And I I don't know the answer to that, but I think I would probably be a happier person. I made a list well here here's the problem. He's like there's all kinds of ways that we could be providing resources to people who don't know resources are available. You have to feel like you have the permission to make stuff. Like I hope At least I feel like we all understood the rules. And if they do understand it, they won't like it. Um that's something you might okay, good.

Like there were actual ICE agents talking about I'm sending you an image. This week's challenge, make something every day. I'm not going to I did to see that. You do you love it, beta? No, I'm I'm I'll drive, I'll drive. So what's going on? Uh and then you put some cling film on it That's not really the same thing. You Um Oh. I just you know it's nice that people have options in life, you know. 57. Woof. Uh yeah. No, I don't. It was, but it's also just like I don't see threads. I log my pea and I go back to sleep. I just made like a whole big plate of Um can I just say my one thing about the challenge and then we'll go They'll tear your car apart with their beak. But like that's okay. Oh my god, just walk into the sea at that point.

Um and but the uh Did you go to the thing? It's funny. It's the That's why it smells so strongly of nineteen thirty six right now. And she knew the procedure. I hope you don't mind. Uh I'm a grown man. But whatever you, whatever we are, what we frequently do. I didn't feel like I got a speedy high, so I guess I was like We're just doing our job. I don't. I I'm not sure how much it's doing at this particular point. Uh is that I'm good You should keep making the stuff that you think will interest somebody. Well no I'm not that warm. Did you go to your thing? Yes. Um I I 'Cause it makes you feel a little more connected. I hate them all so much. If I took it at ten or eleven And that Awww, you know what?

No, I'm sorry. That could be the eleven o'clock song if this was a play. Log my pea. I mean And without No, sensible isn't I mean like as in like Ruffage they call it. You know, I'm just a big meaty guy. Um I wrote down a bunch of stuff. It's killing it. Hmm. She knew all of T So it's Uh What did I do wrong? But Yeah. Nope, I'm Homo. Um I'm doing really well. raw transcript