320. Two Ways to Motivate a Donkey

It's not that it makes you feel happy, but it's that you go like, uh, uh, I guess, uh, okay, that thing's done. No, mm, no. There's some times where you're just like there's been times when like I have sent and received messages from friends who are like, hey, I'd love to link to this, but can you fix that typo? It's not that I'm gonna just talk myself out of this and back into quote unquote feeling good. Are you saying Jason Cocky's dumb? Hey buddy, how are you? Yeah. Stop telling me that. I can't get good fly spray. And that always made me happy. It's the place where I stored the version of me I thought I wanted to be. Please don't say Uncle Hansy. Yes. It's usually for things that don't have irreversible consequences or world changing things.

If you talk about litter boxes wrong, oof. ADHD. I'm not sure if you're not going to be able to do that. Oh fuck fuck fuck. I guess what you can broadly call AI. It's s this is such a good piece of software. I'm I'm not see seeing Hamilton. prestigious blogger because like it had misspellings or it didn't seem classy. Yeah. procrastination. It prompts you to take a picture right now and upload it. But uh the uh I like you don't it won't let you capture the extra data about like who you're with. The year of our lord 2020. Hm. Then we're some boobies. J something that you've seen or heard that feels like one of your dreams. for for how my dreams feel sometimes. Yes. much and he gets all nustled.

Didn't I have like a shower head delivered to cards one time? It's you can Airbnb that room. fr I mean I can't tell you how many dreams I've had about it's exactly my room except then I find another house inside my house. I gotta keep you guys on your toes. Oh, yeah. But what's the next one? intricate. Healthy boy. With Alex Cox and Merlin Mann. Uh clock no, that's the thing, is my number my number one most of what s a lot of people on paper would call success is from actions that came Can you can you pinpoint it? Or like, what is it i I mean you don't have to say, but like wha what are you kind of concerned? Uh for example, like I know I'm really kind of beating this metaphor to death, but um pressure, if you're just getting pushed, being pushed is a certain kind of pressure.

stuff in the 80s it was all about like the you know like i say i i i'll never forget this pbs special and it was a kid who was pretty profoundly spectrumed couldn't or didn't or didn't talk. in ways that are considered healthy. I keep thinking about that Android question where you guys cheated at the relay event. Get another room. Where the note cards were where I was not allowed to go and I would be like, Okay, I am going to the bathroom now. And of or my car will be attached. difference between I mean I know dopamine and adrenaline are different things, but I think they both have a role in that case. Sir Sir circling back. But I obviously he's contrasting that with what we you know historically call positive motivation, negative motivation.

In one dimensional systems, this is almost sorta kind of funny because there's no aiming to do. If you just use carrot and just use stick, you may not be oh or that or you're committed to only ever using one in all situations. Snake size. what's that thing, a phased exposure kind of thing? It's just that as it turned out I had mowed our lawn that day and left the garage door open and the I guess the house door and a corn snake. mm the the awayness is the the fear part and yeah it's been accomplished. I I I I think that's um that rhymes with what you're saying. This is why two 2023 is going to be the year of funny voices, and it's going to be the year that we start saying no to shame. There have been a bunch of unfortunate.

Expensive course or system. is to say what I look at this and this has the stink of bad neighborhood on it. That's what I mean by a bad neighborhood. I know it has a huge role in the s sympathetic parasympathetic nervous system. Uh the feeling was I just like this could be almost like a song in your head. And I I don't know, too soft a word, but easy is not his game. which is my mind, that is can be valuable to me. And and then it tracks it against how much sleep you've gotten, how much exercise you've gotten, and things like that. I like the idea of being forced to choose, you know, relaxed over optimistic. We talked about like why I can't draw and how I feel about it. But if you start getting into the habit of doing that and really thinking about it each time, that could have very good effects in a number of ways.

to checking in literally with yourself and saying doing those office hours with yourself where you go, hey buddy, how's your semester going? Uh because you know my thoughts. I got a lot to say about AI this week. update. Like when you put like plant fo food is plant plant food is in some ways it's pretty close to basically like fly bait. If you ever had one of those little apples that you put like vinegar in or line, but like you know, but basically it there's putrescent material in plant food. They don't understand how they think it's like we have been tied to a railroad. The way I took the challenge was I'm very fascinated by things like Diffusion B that enable you to generate AI AI generated images based on text prompts and sometimes images.

Uh the way the spirit of the challenge I took was in some way and for me I shoot you could use a chatbot for that matter but like I the my angle on this was uh particularly I don't need to be cute about this. Mm-hmm. It's okay if you didn't. in Doctor Strange Love. Yeah, yeah, no, it's it's very much like an app. always be in. I mean you could make it a story, but you would be you might as well be playing Connect the Dots with constellations. But the feeling had a visual component, and the visual component is really all I can share with you. Well you will cli uh because I don't know where I'm going to go. But yeah, he was out and exploring and we're we're I'm I have a renewed, like, complete obsession with Bando.

Twitter. Are you ready for the title of this one? He just gets well I'll just I'll just I'll think I wonder what Banda's up to. I'm just here getting warm. one. I don't know how Gilligan sleeps in that thing, and I really don't know how the skipper sleeps in that thing. And one way he regulates his temperature is by deciding where he wants to be. caffeine or if it's because of a new um uh pretty much never oh sh yeah you're missing out In our challenge doc, you do have uh l l what is it? Drink alcohol very much because it truly feels like I am just poisoning and punishing my body. says like beautiful or live love laugh or or or something. I I just made that up. I love the uh well I bought I almost just said a really unfortunate sentence.

Isn't that a have you not heard about this? s mention this on You Look Nice today. Uh there's an access panel to like get to the guts inside the bathtub. I if memory serves, it was a Playboy magazine with Shannon Tweed on the cover and seven eighths of a fifth of Jack Daniels. And Dudley uh gets beat up by by the Dementors? But then also think about the way there's he has this certain you know the kind of uh this is what actually this looks a fuck ton like my nearby train station West Portal, which is most distinguished as being this very curvy, like weird sixties thing. Frick, what's it called? You know, uh look at this, it draws a mustache on you. would would start sliding in mud and then you die at the bottom of this Tinky Winky ravine.

Like it it looks as if like there's all these like ominous uh shadows like the you know you know the m uh all of the fantastical things. Extremely mentally ill, but nothing. What you what you don't want is a face-noma. relief uh which which relief like a relief as in a bas relief like a um not a fresco but like relief as in texture right uh becoming an illustrator or painter or whatever is realizing that things that are close look really sharp and things that are far the further away something is you know the more blurry or foggy it looks. Oh, yeah. Yes, please. You know? Sitting naked and looking very sad, but like what's so amazing about it, I think I know I see what they were going for here because what's wild is Basically, this AI has confused what is the row that the drink cart goes up and down, and what is the tiny amount of space between you and the seat in front of you.

Kinda? It is Number two. Yeah, this is terrible. She is bewildered and wearing unusual headgear. Personally, I think of him as being more expressionistic, but like he's considered an Italian surrealist. There's there's like I don't know if you still have this, but in one of the terminals, probably terminal two at SFO, there's I don't know, I think there's just a thing. What was I why was I saying this? of the museum. Museum inside the airport. Expected Scarlet Johansson and Mike Pets. They wait, flip through, you can see a few, see if there's any you like there. It's like the lowest of the low rooms in pay dorms. out of a place of fear, whereas most of the things that make me happy have never uh come from acting out of fear or anxiety.

clock because I just think it looks cute. The whole like consequences thing is because uh you may notice that sometimes I'm a little bit tardy to the show. to recording our show sometimes, which is never something that happened when I had a real job, because when I had a real job, I assume that there would have been consequences. if I was late to something. what is one anxious about? Yes. Standing if you are late to the stage, there are immediate consequences. pressure. What we're talking about is this feeling that there's something temporar at least temporarily, it can feel permanent, temporarily um inextricable, like you cannot escape from this. It it's I I I think it's like a lot of things that are in public consciousness but aren't sort of n understood with nuance.

I think people people really I feel like anyway. Pressure. So better people get touched on that. who was the most Asperger's person I've probably ever met in my life. Uh that lack or that poor regulation of that particular chemical means that you have to your body is I feel like the anxiety is something in part that my body creates to get me to the level of with. Anyway, all I'm trying to say is that if you if you it's better understood that ADHD is about you're not don't have enough of of this chemical that people don't realize they even have unless they're gambling or or getting a beech. dopamine where I can cope and like you and I both said we're both pretty good in an emergency. th thriving un under pressure part.

Much. those bad consequences of letting people down uh that are nebulous and just you need a broader you need a slightly broader view And I d I I I learned and I l I learned to believe and in really inhabit the idea that diet is normal and in some ways healthy. Um, you can't tell somebody this when they feel like they're gonna throw up. to get you to premium up and and just to be clear here, I'm not a cheapskate. But the thing is though, what I do like in Matter, like I say, I like the subscriptions thing, but I also really like their recommended staff picks or whatever. This is one I picked up, I'm pretty sure from Matter. This is a piece by something called Malcolm Ocean from February. Right?

Um he says, I like to talk about these as towardsness and awayness motivation, since positive and negative mean near opposite things in this exact context, depending on whether you're using emotional language or systems theory language. I'm motivating you towards something or I'm motivating you away from something. 15 or 16 and there was a snake in my room. had come in. And but like I don't I don't know from snakes. Can't awayness can't aim. Yeah, this this sounds good, but like that I guess that seems kind of obvious, but when you really start thinking about it, towardsness is what you want. I'm like, I totally understand and yes I will, right? So what's funny about a Read It Later service or something in this case like ReadWise is that I just want to say in my case, a bad neighborhood is where all the houses look the same and people are Where this guy, where this Bill Macintosh person is operating from, is that a good neighborhood or a bad neighborhood?

Um V A G U S. This is incredible. uh digestive organs. You can engage with people, you can be happy, you can be grounded. So that's like it frustration, irritation, anger, rage is the fight stuff, right? They're breaking out freeze as the next level of this, which really interests me, and obviously Vanderkolk, because he's saying, well, yeah, it's not just fight or flight. Well, let's explore that. And on the one hand, things that aren't that good feeling aren't gonna destroy me. Back when I was a hot coffee drinker, I would just I would stop sometimes for a week or two, maybe have tea or something so I wouldn't get headaches. be valuable to you. To you, it's not difficult, but I and I I you know it would be useful if you would try to understand that I do have my reasons even if I don't always know what they are.

work? keep encouraging it to go on the paper. th then you have the strength to do. And so if I have a a model for understanding my own mind, uh or like what I perceived to be my mind. Um, I grabbed it off the app store. Feelings in high energy. half jokingly was making fun of your like how many stars do you feel right now is like I I I like the way that this let me let me pull one up and you'll see very quickly how this happening. You had the most positive feelings or negative feelings when you had this amount of sleep, et cetera. seems very obvious of oh, I'm n not just angry, I'm very, very anxious. Sorry, two of the haiku generated by Ghost Reader. by uh what's his name? fun with all of this.

So did you actually see the actual website that this is from? Stressed and anxious mind cannot open to curiosity. I'm gonna oh hear that? And this is a vat that you just continue to uh add or to like Why are you hanging up on the word vat? In this case, it's just this stuff that looks a little like a very, very fine gravel, like a Hawaiian beach. Child Famedorians say it's like you've been strapped to a train car looking through a tube. Photo. right here that we made just now has a bastardized version of the Getty Images water stamp right in it. the people just uh uh paying to use the engine versus uh stable diffusion and uh DOLI that are mm you know funded by b basically like like big AI And uh mid-journey uh refuses ta to take V C money and it just feels like Alex Oh, be uh i i i because that's the easiest way to like interface with their own.

last week but my whole whole idea was like what and I this is the part if it nobody cares but the thing that fascinates me about these images is that these aren't things that I I ever could have created. painters. So the way I looked at that was keep making um AI text-generated images until it feels like the way looks like the way your dreams feel is the way Right. uh surreal uh uh moments but the pace of like mania and then sudden stillness and clarity and stuff like that. In ways and I and like just just to be clear, I am partly doing this to be amusing, I hope, because dreams are f not interesting. that the images will be in front of their face because I don't think we should do it on the actual page.

Only Jesus knows. Um Abando is the name of a bearded dragon that we adopted three years ago, and I love him very much. I'll get well I'll get one of him on the heating pad tonight, but his little hands will be up sort of high. But his body conforms very nicely to it. Glass, yes, yes. I've been dreaming a lot more lately, and I'm not sure if it's because I've been having too much Okay, um let's talk about your dreams, bitch. Everything you're doing wrong, you're totally doing it wrong. crazy wall that my mom designed in 2008. No, there's there there are uh there's weed bombs now. Not Gauguin, but uh who's Starry Night? Uh yeah, the nineteen twenties brothel connected to a McDonald's play place.

that have been appearing in my dreams, although the one above a skate park look i is is uh pretty similar. Oh my god, you you uh well, I think Kurt would say you're we're not we can't we can't know whether we're in the same carass, but we're at least seated in the same grandfalloon. And kind of like a child's bed in like a Dutch children's book, like where the kids sleep in little compartments. Mm yeah, oh, absolutely. It didn't have a hinge or anything, but you would just like floop, like pull it out, you know what I mean? to the house that she lives in, it's kind of echoed in like where um Ebon Costello are, you know, in the Big Tank thing. the texture or grain of wood, but it's fucking concrete.

is so bad. Is that the thing where you feel like that? And what does that mean? It it was uh yeah, but it but in the don't you see in the uh like you like you said, don't go down that like uh left don't don't go to the left. Because you you can't tell that it is a cliff, but your my perception tells me that is so fucking a cliff. Uh like that saying relief is partly why you got that interesting texture in the path and the uh tunnel. Because we our brain knows the stuff that's far away is more blurry and foggy and usually desaturated. Yeah. The the uncle that R worded you when you were thirteen is I believe what I put in there. So it i i I would say that this is like kinda kinda basic. Is it like a weather system?

things that I every single one of these started with things I literally have written down from my dreams. Five and a half days this will continue to exist. What's amazing about this image when you just sit with it for a minute is like what it's trying to do here is it looks like this man is sitting in the sideways seat of a bus. website. She's got her jo does she have a Johnson? A military school for white children has started growing there. maybe painting. brain so hard. What was it? Not to be confused with the counters on the other side, which are the airline counters, but like where you come through the automatic doors in that area where there's seats, for example, you know, and you'll see this I know what you're describing, I think.

like somewhere between the quality of like a third grade diorama and a fifth grade play, but it was all Egyptian artifacts. Just for just some giggles, oh I don't know if this is up. Wait, yes, yes I do. Clearly in his pants. Um that one was Scarlet let's see. Yes. like. Mm, I don't want to say won't have a consequence because there's always a consequence to every action, whether it's good or bad. Or not becomes a part of you. keep my dishes in the sink and let them soak overnight. I'm doing well. out of pure anxiety. or kind enough. um people are gonna think I'm I don't care and they're gonna think that I'm unprofessional and I'm gonna walk out on stage already kind of down in the count. And he would s the the the my girlfriend and I would talk about this and we laugh because we thought it was funny.

Like I thought that didn't make any sense. I got a little bit too into the game and we did indeed win. a time timer where before I have you know if you follow the route of Mike Hurley pretty soon you're also gonna need a time time time time timer to remind you about your time time timer There's something in my brain where there is that fear that gets that dopamine to a place where it is easy to be focused. have to or what uh I've chosen to do something. Because there's so much shit, Alex, that I don't send you throughout the week. Have you ever sent anything to somebody's cue in Reader? backmalaisha. Turns out adjacent fruitcake substack shit that is that I like a lot more than I'd wanna admit, but uh s sidebar one, can we try the thing where we send things to each other's queue with with mindfulness?

You need a carrot that the donkey can follow because it wants to eat the carrot, and you also need a stick because you smack it on the behind to get it to do what you want. So I I'm I'm looking at the arrows. The vagal system is this extremely long nerve that passes the i i is goes through a lot of parts of your body and it has been God, you took me so far off a really short point. And so this person says, like, so this piece is called, first I just want to say what the piece is called How to Map Your Own Nervous System, Colin, The Polyvagal Theory. So like you could say a word like I Oh this is good. There's fight or flight. But ventral vagal is this idea of like social engagement. And this is actually Vanderkoelk is, I think, a a fan of this theory, which is that there's these different labels of sort of regulation and response that are happening in your body um as a result of That's the thing I get from Matter, is I end up finding a lot of this horse shit that I I find at least thought-provoking, you know?

I I don't feel good. style, you know, and that's what goes on your slash now page is like I'm fascinated by AI right now and that's my attention is being used to curate your attention toward things that I think would be But you know, it may not seem like a very tough job to be out there curating other people's links, but you know, to do that with Panache and to develop somebody like Andy Bayo, obviously, you develop a certain kind of an editorial from reader, but you also get uh I I assume recommendations about a lot of things. To me, the like just the thing that I bring about my attention back to, that I incline my attention back to, like Annie Lamotte putting the puppy back on the paper, is like you don't hit your dog for shitting on the rug.

And um so why do I why am I interested in this now? polish but i'm checking in i'm clicking on high energy pleasant and i've got options like surprised excited energized cheerful upbeat curious successful amazed inspired productive so let's say i feel optimistic And I click that and it's gonna track that, ask me where I am, take a photo, that kinds of stuff, right? You know, I can feel that, oh wow, I am kind of angry right now, but I think that angry anger my angry um sponsored by Arby's Um I the reason I'm feeling angry is because I'm kind of mad at myself. which or sorry, bearable, which I found out m Maddie uh uh uses just completely independently of uh yeah and I realized for him it's not as important to get all of the data out of it, which is why I was like meh meh When you're very, very angry, you don't realize necessarily that you are afraid, even though that uh outside of it it's like helping society award or something, but like it's pretty hasn't been updated in two months and feels a little buggy.

It's one of these call now to schedule a session kind of sites. engine, which it's based on, is diffusion B runs a lot faster on Where um the brother makes his sister a red carpet photo with a fake Getty Images stamp on it. So we got mid journey and oh my my my notes for day. Yeah, you're you're not using any of uh your c computing power. We're gonna try that, right? You know, and they do remind me very much of things like the paintings of again of Francis Bacon, of you know, DeCurico, of these surrealist or expressionistic that felt like a drain. magically real or surreal aspect to it. Yeah, please. And then you and I can just figure it out, right? You ever seen a grown man naked? It was so cute.

treasure trove uh of uh beautiful and entertaining photographs because you don't want to put the best on the internet. This is an Australian bearded dragon in a a hammock we bought him at a store and his body is in it at this weird like sort of like you would imagine like whenever I watch Gilligan Gilligan's Island, I'd think And gapes are like gaping is kind of like, you know, how I want to match these um broken dogs, you know, wool slobber. Well because no I I just uh I Like the grape, look it up. We should do a dead drop. point. was getting all the strychnine that they put on Hawaiian wood rose seeds so you won't do exactly what we were doing. Oh no! I watched so much fucking Better Call Saul, which again, well, I think I first referred to this as the Chevy Chase syndrome, where like I 90% of the Chevy Chase I know is from before 1986.

Yeah, I I it's but but it's written in the font of like a a it's like it has a mom two thousand and eight typeface that Uh oh wait, no the nineteen twenties brothel. Oh god, these are so good. Um, it's almost like an optical illusion because my brain is trying to figure out I see angles to this that suggest it's a McDonald's. Like that the the red part kind of looks like a booth out of McDonald's. And so my room had a panel that you could remove and you were inside the wall. Um this is the I okay, this one I Oh oh my god. And just to the east of my room, sharing a wall through my closet was the bathroom. Uh yeah, right. for this one because I just uh took this is the top with the tinky yes I uh uh just did this I woke up, it it was felt like a n what I felt was a nightmare.

the top let's say even quarter or third like it looks pretty normal but when you see it with the tunnel it makes it feel like it's what's the word that a plane does This is not a like, you know, an illustration or like a comic strip of uh of dreams. Fix it. There is a very long hallway. So you know how the seats are on a bus, at least on our buses or streetcars here, there's seats to face forward, there's seats to face back, there's seats that face sort of sideways, depending on the configuration of the bus. I there's a lot of pence need in this. Um co come up a lot and f and flying. Oh, is this the one under the Yeah, oh okay, very common thing, theme for me. This is in my the actual dream that I first remember having this happen.

Hello. It's called a time timer. So like, you know, they get you coming and going. Up the hill, but it's just this literal reminder of a good thing is going to happen at the end of this. in apps all the time. This is are you ready for this? Where in three dimensions you would like to be, as opposed to a single point in the universe where you don't want to be. If something happened to you when you were a kid and you couldn't get away from it, you may have an unintentionally sort of conditioned response to do nothing. And that's just what is the topmost in that graphic, Alex? But getting a way to name the feeling that's associated with that response does feel wholesome. That's not Well's a compliment to Jason, isn't it?

positively and an increasing visible like I could I'm not sleeping well and it doesn't taste as good. coming in and out of your nostrils. And it's just a tip I heard about like, I don't know, 15, 20 years ago. And associated with your high or low energy, do you have positive or negative feelings? And so it can be things like I'll show you a video of like a breathing exercise or something. themselves can make you r realize uh I think s I think so, yeah. Yeah. Dig it, dig it, dig it, dig it, dig it, dig it. No, I don't I'm I'm just hold up. Because what? So you just have a bunch of corpse sand. almost impossible to describe. Being uh hmm, not in a sexual Hmm, hmm. Oh no! You wouldn't believe you think all those photos that Bando and I put up of him are all the photos there are?

Oh, I mean up you love a good look at his face. No, those are absolutely as spikes. I uh I I find them them pleasant. I don't think people realize that b part of why these pictures are probably so cute is because he obviously feels safe and cared for because he's just he's just basking. feel like the the it very much like the dreams I have had this week, which I No, because that's the thing. Um it's a beautiful painting. a couple feet away from my closet. It really looks I don't know what that means. Oh yeah, yeah. too m much, but now that I I look at it and again, overthinking too much, but not on edibles, uh, but I apparently should be. Or relief as in ooh relief as in uh being able to breathe.

The word ominous, I think, is what what m did did the clouds i in, but uh those clouds look pretty real. I they d they yeah. Uh like it's canting a little bit. Uh and uh yeah, this this was fun. Plane with the typical uh plane. That's well uh no but but but there's the screen directly to the like his last like a it looks like a like a Dell PC. Okay, my last one of the four is a little obscure, but um I love the work of um Giorgio DiKirco. It's oh oh yeah that that you know in the sense of like what the way Caden has put the you know in the warehouse has got all the different parts of his life staged and operating and the peop oh my fucking god that movie that movie breaks my fucking And I remember needing to get to my flight and I took a right term and I went by like there was one that was kind of like a duty free shop combined with do you guys have free speech zones or free speech uh areas at the airport?

You go here and just here. Oh, at um at uh yes, at Gen Con. And never late to anything that ha will have a consequence of uh acting out of fear rather than uh any other place. Because uh every time something starts as a bit right it intentionally ADHD, one of the things is that because you lack the dopamine. No no. And you can't see that this is not perfect, but it's almost like you're so exhausted knowing you have to reach the top of the hill. Yep. I be well, because there's the dopamine of if I don't do this thing, I will be fired or evicted or the power will turn off. Can't aim. in three dimensions, what is away, as Michael Stipe asks. You know, you're panicking about something. No, that's horrifying.

Is that going to see a production of Hamilton at the Richard Rogers Theater? I think that this is very similar to what I was thinking about, except I put it in a nerdier, ardier uh way of n uh none You should be you should feel bad about what happened no matter what. Mm-hmm. I do think there's something is something very much to this that is really just adjacent even to mindfulness, which is I just okay, hang on. He is one of the OGs where stepping away from a bit for for a bit and then coming back to uh doing what he he does. And and it might s well I'm not gonna you know, this is also gonna be quietly the year of I'm gonna stop chicken probleming. You're reading more and more about all of this, uh not not just vagals, but sure, you have recommendations.

Which is, why don't you just do your work? Or why don't you just do the thing? And again, I see this, I say this is very much like what you've done, right? Um, I'm with these people, etc. And so I I think stuff like that, having a name for what you're feeling can be really good. A body tells its tale. I Yeah, I mean Well, did you not do that? Describe your dream to a an AI engine uh that would spit out a pretty picture Mm-hmm. Anyway. Yes. The oh no no. It would be Pro Talk about his carrot. Yeah. It would be like somebody who's an alcoholic that only drank beer once. And 90% of what my kids my kid knows is community. Or and he tried to get the help and affection from his friend and the toilet was flushed.

I don't even think they are worth describing, but there has been a th- Wait wait wait Whoa whoa whoa Who what the fuck? If that uh well, um w w one of them was uh stepping through a crazy wall that's a designed by my mom in uh 2008. And uh and no, I should have ridden them down, but stepping through a stepping uh through uh The uh the the one thing that I haven't been able to get close to or really describe are the like tunnels. But you know that look of when you've got concrete, but they've used like plywood to press it, so there's like a wood grain to con you know what I'm talking about? Yes, I compared it. You know, which is how you come up with something like what the Fleischer brothers did with animation where you've got stuff in the background that's moving more s more slowly and stuff in the foreground that's moving more quickly and the stuff in the foreground and your brain is tricked into believing that looks like three D.

Right? I'm obsessed with what is on the screen. His eyes are not closed. potentially very wackadoo thing and you want to give out pamphlets or sell flowers, that's where you do it. Dropbox, do by Friday, E320, Media. God, ah, there's so many naked people on airplanes. And I can decide what on the way over on this other side with my right hand over here. There we go. I like it so much. Existential and uh fear of uh not just letting you down, but the theoretical people who listen to this show not being smart enough, funnier enough. When I say actual stage fright, I mean literally going on a stage in front of people. But being pushed from one or more than one direction is a lot of pressure. Yes.

Yep. Oh, I did not know you could do that. This diagram's really funny. Mm-hmm. I know you went to art school in in Illinois. panicky things, bad feelings, it goes, it it's it's your it's your um obviously it involves your your brain, it goes through your, you know, your Um this is where is it? He's not the son, you are. So it's not just that this app is tracking your mood necessarily, but the prompts Because something that means Um What it meant was I didn't have a funnier, clever way to say uh And um President Muffley says, that's that's you know secret information. Uh now if it was a dream, it could be second person. Oh, am I from the five? Yeah. Ralla. My kid my by the way, my kid is now posting reviews on Letterboxd.

I'll send I'll send you some some i images that I Mine are in the the ones I made last night at one in the morning after recording with Squidward are in the dropbox. Uh the This is like when the girl in the video game looks at the crazy wall and has to figure out if the drugs are dogs. Be careful, don't go down that left side of the hill. Yeah. Let me just tell you what I did and then what I would love for you to do. This is the it looks like you did d jumped it overly. And that's what made it feel like a dream. bunch where Maestrel is not launching and that's why stuff hadn't been showing up. And I will give up the verimilitude of the written part in the interest of getting to tricking this dumb fucking thing into making the image that like is what it feels like.

That's the thing. No, no. Um because I was I don't know. JobCrusher dot com methods large commission without selling anything. Agency taken away and you say, Well, oh gosh, how'd you get a boyfriend like that again? Oh yes, yes, yes. And I it does feel like it could be a little bit adjacent to to uh quack science, but it's I don't care. No. What happens in Poly Vegas? Ooh, do you have a lot of f flies because of the humidity? It's not it's not a vegan product. Everybody remembers so it goes. I'm big, big fat. Yeah, there's a couple class action scenes. does use the like uh i it has similar scraping tools where you know it's stealing all of its it's a real quick the latest one Well we can get into that.

And well and that like um p p pace of occasional like uh not just y you know s Because we got heating pads. Um the well part of why I oh see we could have another we we You're doing it wrong, you're doing it wrong. The oh oh oh no no no don't associate that with my dream Oh shit dog but you know what it looks like? Secretly controlled by a let's say that just uh let's say handsy uncle, but that's not the that's not what I put into the prompt. So these are not an illustration of my dream, they're like a police composite sketch of my dreams. Yeah, yeah. But I I also kind of like that it looks almost like a sci-fi cruise ship. You're saying that in the past a lot of things you've done were motivated by fear and anxiety and that when you're you f you feel like when you are late for things Um, when you're cycling.

Exactly. It's anxiety is not a thing. Positive and negative. Right. So it's basically just aloe vera. That's a lot of things you don't remember. Telling me to loosen up because I'm already loose. Well for for for anybody out there who who isn't almost 60, it's very weird to be somebody who's had a fuck ton of psychedelics but never had mushrooms. I've probably watched it on this program and then laughed and then forgotten to put the audio into the video. Uh thing to send you for the zoo. The well a part of And a cathedral in the background you've got a Gothic Arch. I'm gonna keep talking until you promise to fix this. Yeah. But um but uh what was I gonna say? Now the county extension officer that that my mother called on that particular Saturday night in nineteen eighty two came out and said, um, quote, It's only a corn snake.

So I okay, so here's the thing. interest or concern of mine for years and years and years is, you know, this this kind of stuff, gestures broadly. Uh I in fact do I I do in fact have the prompt from this one because I it was a I actually did this one on my phone five. Is that me, but you know what I'm saying? Those Anyway, my dreams have a lot of clouds and tunnels. The the first one feels so much like my dreams. Uh okay, um number two Norman Rockwell painting of Mike Pence sitting on a gravestone eating a crossword puzzle and crying inconsolably I I remember that I still remember the first time I had it. But like I remember this, I was in I was in an airport going through this giant terminal, you know, like one of those a very modern airport with the very, very high ceilings and everything.

Mm like a lonely twink masturbating on a plane. But I f I found out that uh some poke folks had seen the note cards with the questions beforehand, which is fine, but then Cause it scared me, right? And I think without being too ps sad about this, when we talk to people who've been assaulted or have in some way like had their body and their integrity and their Um I sometimes feel well okay, so here's a bit. Like well and and his whole thing is like, well, I don't need an API, j I just want to know what I'm f feeling. Well, like hey, hey, how do you know we tri what? I don't measure him, not a monster. If John and I had like a like an Irish folk song written about us, I think it would be called something like The Toilet and the School Mar.

And I'm like, oh shit, this is like ominous relief. G Spec? Because what I started with that was closer to the initial dream. Read a second room. I I retract my question. That's that's very good. The the NIMBIA. And it's it sucks and like it's got to stop. You're actually, that's like saying, I don't want to lift weights because they're too heavy. And something like this where you where you associate like an adjective. That's pretty good. Yes. But I can save that for later. I think that's such a fun playground for ideas about the mind. He I have earned no comedy points. But I've but I've had 2 C B. That's where New Me lives, I hope, I guess. I don't like it. For if you and well like I don't know how to make this fun um with audio, but click through if you want, but what's the all so these are basically I took Letting people down, including myself and failure and ask, what does failure mean?

Oh, I don't I don't like that. I I am so afraid of taking mushrooms and then mushrooms. No, this is draw things. Um you know what we're we're we're pretty long and let's just keep it bright and tight. No, actually, how do you see alt text on oh right here on the So here's what I'm gonna ask you to do. Talk about leg room, all right? Like a subway, right? It's got a cubist aspect to it, but it mainly looks like somebody somebody ate mushrooms and then started started drinking an IKEA catalogue. That's pressure. Well the the wholesome way, or at least the you know, the the second second path is or stepping stepping uh back on with my time timer. Oh, well, uh dig dig duck. I love anything where his hands are like at a foot You do the thing too where you say hands.

I'm I'm going I'm going to start because I probably have far less interesting things to say. I don't know if that's real. AI drawing? Like a and there's like the little shack and and then there's the ones that he stole. Um, all right. Oh wow, that did not No, see that's why you gotta keep tweaking. It matters to you to do this right. Just read it just to read it. Have you ever felt like another piece of media or or something We have images. Oh, he felt b I was gonna say, how do you know it was an accident? Oh, I should get him on Mastodon. Like it does feel a little scammy. Hello. If you go back and reread it, you'll find so many times where Billy Pilgrim says, um Um Not the not the movie one.

This um if I get this right, like it th we'll be sharing images with one another here and then consequently, do you agree it'll make sense to share those images with our friends? Because she can't stop being a mom and she's great at it. Look how flat he is. I can't get uh diffusion B to replicate a uh oh I probably should have done Chuck Eat Cheese play uh tunnel play play. It's the because it's real, but it's not real. Do you have a thought on that? Oh no, wait, I can't get this on Amazon? And I thought that was cool. It almost doesn't this look like where where the the neighbor who's been the neighbor who's the woman from Andor has been keeping an eye on Harry and and um Sur Sir Brian. Oh yeah, so anyway I'd gone but the kiosk was some kind of an inner it was like a duty-free shop kiosk combined with some kind of an interactive experience or like like Max and his massages at uh I will get Kathy Campbell on record.

Tor like t whoa. I'll go get it. Did you oh was it not you that made the Mike Pence boobies? Because like or or like a speakeasy um almost kind of thing. No, that's sleep paralysis, which I've only experienced like once or uh or twice, but n Oh I mentioned that I'm extremely And that's I like to say I'm anxious of I'm anxious about nothing and everything. Oh all it is a physical it is a little physical object that just sits in front of my desk. Uh, I I have this little countdown where an hour before I quote Um I uh Matter is really now officially Matter being the bookmarking Read It Later, etc. You know, and finally to bring all together through the great Pimachodron, just remember that you're the sky, not the weather.

I wanna say too much coffee, I mean like over time. But it makes this little vagination between your legs. And sweet Madeline's like, oh no, no, it's okay, buddy. Okay, second one. Um I um I got something called El Pintador. I mean like that's high functioning. There we go. This might still be the show. It's one hundred percent free. Because people or people who don't have ADHD, you know, you I I can completely understand a a what's meant to be a wholesome wholesome version of why don't you just syndrome. Okay, do you feel like which of these like 50 different adjectives do you feel right now? I know my first thought is does this hook up with like I love the way that day one and things like this w work with Apple Health and like to not have that hook up feels like I'm getting kinda ripped off.

And he says we've learned that the reason we're doing this is because we heard that you were um, you know, that whatever, something you were escalating the war with these ICBMs. And in this instance, Getty's like, hey, hey guys, you can't use our images with those famous and wonderful scene in the other two. Oh here he is using a computer. And I not only like you better than Syracuse, importantly, I like you differently than Syracuse. Holy shit, the second one. I'm like right now we are in the eyebrew era of AI. What about the hands on the gravestone, Alex? And not fuck up. I've bought everything that is last the last Last of Us on the PlayStation store. What is fucking me up is the coercive motivation bit that's after it.

Because as we know from the the the Dutch book, shame is our brain's unintentional way of uh it's a way of our brain trying to help us by saying this thing that you're feeling is You click through and like it's I found this really fascinating thing. You're fascinated with veigels right now and you're reading a lot of it. No, I I remember that because I had to reconnect. Bleeploops. Mike Pence eating a crossboard puzzle on a gravestone is a lot like how my dreams feel. Oh oh I thought you No no no we didn't name him. It's that orange oil bullshit. That that I would never in a million years drink because it made me really sick. I don't know. Not on your life, my skin. This is the m I think the most Merlin y dream that uh of the uh What no, what was the what was the one?

I don't know because it never happens. And then at some point you go, Oh, I guess I'm over the top now. Because uh all this talk is leading up to this. And all I was trying to say with ReadWise Reader and similar InstaPaper is if you only read something on its own, completely unadorned. And like I'm not saying you can like, you know, become a you know become a a monk in an hour by knowing about this. No, God, no, I'm saying these are b they both seem like smart ideas. Bessel Vanderkook? Um you're gonna help me with mid-journey. I'll hold my fingers like like an eighth of an inch apart. And then Wayman came along and gave you this other idea. Well that gets back to my life hack and being in an emergency.

It's I want to seek pleasure and reject pain. I'm sorry. Um, and then I think one time you're the one who first introduced me to fight, flight, or freeze. I don't like it. I don't know if you should do mushrooms. I was back into invoking Ghost Reader, shift G and and making um just for fun while I was waiting, I was um listening to Rock Pile and generating haikus out of my books and articles. Don't need lap. So like sometimes well I'll just I've only ever had one lizard in a in a vivarium, which is a really bad Morrissey song. It's Uncle Hansy! And I didn't go this far, but I intuitively knew that if I walked into the airport, inside the museum, into the airport, there would be a museum inside the airport, inside the museum.

Like nonverbal? Which if if y'all don't know, that goes back to the idea that like there's two ways to motivate a donkey and you need both. Oh really? Yeah, yes. I love a heating pad. Th this one freaked me out. Uh uh y it's a utopian skate skate park uh connected to a uh cloudy twisting uh playplace monorail. I mean I don't think there's such a thing as bits anymore. No, there it's San Francisco. I'm I'm not um making out with another cute they. Or why don't you just take out the trash? Because I've never heard the word that and hand san hand sanitizer in the same paragraph, let alone sentence. People need to see them. And he got and he got it on him. You ever seen the Bob LaMonte story on Mr.

Backrooms and liminal spaces are uh all the rage on the internet right now, and I am here for it, as we said in twenty sixteen. I feel like I would kind of love to have an Uncle Hans. Now the next one, this is the last one, and this one I spent the most time on, and believe it or not, this is the closest I got and it's still nowhere near as good as my dream. Let's go. Time timer. If it's not one thing, it's another. You're and you're gonna end up with piss on the floor no matter how hard you try. It's like, well, if you're scared of snakes, like first maybe we'll talk about a piece of rope. And over time that means you can lift more. Oh god, 'cause when you click on sh I don't yours, but when you click check in I sometimes get a blank screen with the You like gladiator movies?

You see how flat he is? And look how his tail just hangs off the back and looks like a dragon. The self the bedroom. No thank you. I know this is like an internet bit at this point, but people, especially people who live in tiny places in in Manhattan, I don't know. But but the problem is for one reason or another, I do thrive under Read it. That's to me the heart of mindfulness is like trying to stay in this moment by focusing on this one thing. One of the rare times I saw something sort of not advertised but featured on the app store and I grabbed it. I've heard people talk about. It also uh I think Mid Journey is the coolest and it has the best business model that doesn't make my skin crawl.

But he's enormous. Second one, brothel 20s, but it's got a McDonald's booth. Um so we live uh we live in a little house in Florida and my mom and me and you know like you got the you got your bathroom and Is it some kind of like again a Dementor? Number two. The actress Scarlett Johansson's uh J Johansson's uh Scarlet We don't know. Pinpoint like the um well I think if I heard you correctly, and I almost certainly did not because voices you've already got quite a goulash cooking here. And maybe it's that you are you walked into a room, like the time I walked into my bedroom when I was I know, but some metaphors are bad. And I read this the most amazing piece um that might be total bullshit, but I thought it was so interesting.

Do you? The way that I write them down is based very much on how it felt and what was there. I I I hope I'll put these in. You're very stoic and want to arm wrestle. The way you're doing it wrong is wrong. It's blind thirty six. Um oh yeah, here we go. Hmm. I don't always know the difference, or I mean I I couldn't tell you like f body energically the thing It it wasn't easy, but now I had something to focus on. It's pretty similar in some ways to stuff very similar in ways you've done. Ooh, go, oh, yuck. Listen, listen, listen. Oh my god, you will just please stop trying to guess what I'm thinking. Um please click on the tweet that says my job is really weird. Yeah, here's all oh boy. Like the most realistic human with the most oh god.

This week's challenge, Dream in AI. Oh god. Oh. Alright, alright. I hope they don't fuck this up. I just think I don't know, I maybe it's not profound to you, but like it is to me. Well the reason I I'm promulgating this here is not because I vetted this and pretended to read the papers and stuff like that. Ooh, ooh, yay, yay. Whenever something dies, you say so it goes. That really? Sure, there's also the time blindness, but that also just comes from anxiety. You're right. You should I have a lot of these, Alex. This elephant is my slaughterhouse five. Yes, yes. And I always thought, I wonder what what if what I could put in here. It it came out of the colour. Love the big woman. It's like you're in yeah, it's fine, it's whatever.

Oh. And then I says to myself, I says, well, there must be something there. Oh that doesn't sound wolf. Givesyourfucking money. No, no, no, no, no. Oh shit. I wrote it at three AM and it yeah, it Alex, we're doing our dreams. Fix this. It's not our business. So like we have a free speech thing, but it's not free speech known as in like a Trump rally. Don't fuck up, Alex. There's a snake in my room. How big was the side sidebar? And it I know this is this is probably only slightly more credible than more Jelans, but Using something like Diffusion B with that that app that you can get off the internet will put it in notes tippy toe limb and tree. No, no, no, but like it's not there's a lot there are things like for the one I wanted to use that Midjourney.

I was thinking about a a man who had gotten loose on a psych ward, but oh but sure, could go to the air place too. Oh Bandu. And so to be able to do stuff without having to tear out tile, they thoughtfully included an access panel. No, no, absolutely. We return to the classics. Anxiety is a symptom of ADHD. Mm-hmm. Oh, just in the right. Son of whom. I love the bleep blur fonts. You could have written that lyric better, and the meter was off. If doesn't it feel like it's turning just slightly counterclockwise while you're walking through it? I mean anxiety is like a backpack that holds your things. There's a reason that when when we talk about things like, you know, all these different things with your brain juices, you know, uh the clo one of those classic examples in terms of like desensitizing yourself or I hate this metaphor.

Trauma etched in flesh and mind. How are you? I proposed the challenge just AI your dream. Do you want to do that? I've had I've had um I don't even know what the two The pharmaceuticals that we got in Sarasota were nuts. The guy who did um Arrival and Dune and Oh yes. Uh you look like you're drinking a beer. I did figure out I said something to you the other day, probably to you. In the same way that people when we first started talking about spectrum stuff, at least I first started hearing about spectrum stuff. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It does not gonna help. I love the smell of alcohol. Oh but no no no no shit no. Are you able to click on yes? Um, this is the description. If anyone has seen uh John dies at the end, this looks very much almost like the surrealist warehouse.

It was like I don't know about a couple of years ago. It seems very it seems like a lot to assume, but you can postposably send things to people's cue in uh ReadWise Reader? Well no, think about it though. Here's him using a computer. I didn't have multiple. Uh kind of like where the hound fights um Lady Brienne. But there's seat back entertainment in the seats in front of him. He's looking he's looking right into your soul while he eats what an AI can suppress puzzle is. The white children are all very sad. Where's the one where people got massages? Um, I'm not sure, but this might still be the show. If you play in a space long enough, it becomes your spot. So so it's a little bit st a little bit stage fright?

And and it it this ties into so many things, including anxiety, including procrastination. Being on stage is fine. Should we should we do challenge? I'm not sure how surpassingly helpful that will be to somebody who doesn't know what the fuck any of that means. Where will they be in show notes? Well, that's so hard. Do you like I don't like thinking I I oh Mother Mother Mother All right, well we'll place these two more. So funny. And I don't know. All I know is there was a snake in my room and it freaked me the hell out. When you don't see how shitty a website is, you can only evaluate the content based on what you're actually reading. It's called Paul I think it's called polyvagal theory. And you just do that several times a day.

And Madeline put a heating pad on her lap and turned it on. Oh my god. I can't get a good shower head. But it's also that it does that wonderful thing. There's a lot. I have a new mmm life life hack. You're right. But doesn't that d but but like it's I don't know, there's something so uh on the face of it, when I first saw this, I was like Mm I can call him Mr. Hi Alex, how are you? There's places to talk to people, but most people use it don't actually talk to you. But you would not believe how cute he is when he falls asleep on the heating pad. I think so, yeah. There is it's four twenty somewhere, like uh tum tumblers. Van Gogh. That's what this looks like. Yeah. You're like a person who goes, Oh pancreatic cancer.

This is uh emerging from a confusing tunnel in a space with ominous relief. I'm gonna fix it. I'll do it again. And it's been repeated numerous times. No, no, no, no. This is the most controversial one, which is like when you return to a state of like homeostasis. And it's it's just this thing of like you've just gotta do it a lot. The movement paradigm? It's called Bedroom in Ar Arles, I believe. Oh, I think so. Catch 22. I n well um I'm sorry, I'm I don't mean to diagnose. I think this is kind of like that, which is like, hey, bud, don't overthink it. I'm frustrated with how much energy I burn today just on feeling bad and ruminating. There's another one earlier. I um I mean I already have B RSS to his uh Twitter feed.

Don't look you don't want to. Uh my my my my final um w one uh was a I I have uh It looks like Tony Hawk licked a toad. I think I'm going to keep doing it. I did not expect the Twink with a boner on an airplane. I do actually have a LaCroix to a little bit. Oh, this is great software. Or why don't you just make that call you don't want to make? That's very good. Are you ready to challenge buddy? But you know, real far down, like uh like Bill Tench's kid kind of on uh on Mindhunter. It is it is one of the greatest curators that we've had With your with your five-star um energy and feeling app, where you go like, okay, right now I feel accomplished. I'm pretty sure that's what I put it in. Because there's that like light that as you're coming out of the tunnel.

Um his deformed arm is clearly in his pants. It's called a time timer and it's one of those where it's Of course, of course. Oh yeah. Hotel rooms are expensive. And you can you can use that and you know you can try to channel that energy in a in a productive way. Is that making sense? Because of like the fact that it's everything's sort of like discontiguous and yeah. And I'll walk in the other room and I'll just walk in and this is what I see there. And when he's ready to be hot, he gets on the rock right under the 150-watt bulb, and that's when he gapes. Oh wouldn't it be so cute if I got Bandu a backpack? Oh, I know the one. This yeah, this this one or at least I think it is free. However, the tunnel at the top is so much.

It's you, but it's not you. The actress Scarlett Johansson sits in the uh is sits in an aquarium. When your bideth it's by your bed, it does not matter what the size is. I I just think because the the Vegas thing has interested me. Oh, have you ever seen a naked man poop on the floor? But uh uh I guess how do you know he felt bad? I think I'm this close. Hold on. Oh my god, this reminds oh fucking hey Alex. Yeah, I think it's called one Oh my god, somebody recreated it. It is stable diffusion. It's difficult to describe because when I say fishbowl, a fishbowl is a kind of room at New College. It's that I need to establish a better baseline for where I would like to end up, sort of. Like over like a several weeks if I'm ramping up the amount of coffee that I drink, I not only don't like feel good, I feel bad.

It's not it's not that I want that I don't want to go like live inside of a metaphor. Like another drug or like TK another drug challenge or or something? No something I'm Mr. Everything you're doing wrong, you are doing wrong. That crazy Wainscotting shit or whatever that is behind the McDonald's TV logo, incredible. But like it's this this felt uh like I I've been thinking about it Such a satisfying noise every time I hear it. This does not this doesn't require you to join some expensive program or course in order to make it work. But then the thing is, the sympathetic nervous system kicks in, that's fight or flight. But you know what my favorite repeating bit in that book is just the two-letter word that Billy says a lot, which is um And he turns and he looks his eye.

Mm-hmm. The Van Gogh painting of his room with the bed in it. Number two, Alex. So the problem with ADHD is like it is on the one hand, it is as simple as your body is not creating and processing and responding to dopamine. This is the first head in in the um piece. Uh like uh I I've I've talked about this. Because you you know a bad neighborhood when you see it, right? And there will always be more weight you can't lift. Trauma's weight so heavy I think I've done this one before. We didn't tr getty what? com. So I I either in text will describe to you what I saw exactly as I saw it, that will imply certain feelings, and that there will be a I uh I don't know. It turns out medication does really help.

And then later I found, not out of malice, but I found out that someone we'll get probably two or three episodes out at least before you get it. No, no. This is really good. Hold up sidebar, put a paint in it, circle back parking lot Oh, you know what? Oh, you mean you're talking about you're talking about walking with a man down to the rectory, if you know what I mean. Isn't he exquisite? I love the idea of you exploring tunnels. Oh oh oh oh uh what's the twink with the boner? But what you p if you do it often enough, what you pick up is that you're nervous, those butterflies are there because you care. Maria Bamford. Tor okay. Because that's the neat part. Gather around the fire chilling and let me tell you about the pandemic Alex Forgot title.

Like what is w how do you make a plant grow? That was his name. Yeah. I'm gonna fix it. Do you get that? Um Scarlet Johansson sits in a fishbowl, packing a cardboard box with large bowling trophies. Uh um, okay, ready? Stillness brings empathy. It's okay. We'll put this lizard away for a minute. Hello, two thousand eight. Um I had a very dumb joke about tar. Uh Giorgio DiCurico painting of a cheap motel room at midnight. An infinitely enormous airport terminal interior. Yep, yep, there's always some but then I go right past that and there's there was a And you're saying that when you're we don't say tardy anymore. There's all these things in life where we think about, oh gosh, like if I wait too long to go out on stage.

But the truth is, like, now in retrospect, as our friend Max used to say, there's a lot more people out there on the spectrum than we probably realize, including f importantly for me, my very best friend from childhood. But I didn't have any way of understanding that at the time. Uh I just like it as a different framing d device. Oh my god. And she puts the heating pad there and puts bando and he nustles into the space where her legs are together and then he falls asleep. She cleans the poop off the lizard and the stairs. Yeah, that's uh I've never done mushrooms and I tried cocaine exactly once. I'm sure stupid mean anything. No Okay. But like it's one big window, but like the windows don't open.

Um, what do you uh I I I already know. I think in some ways is like and and I you know, just for what it's worth, I really want to get your back on this. Can I do one more? Some met I am going to look I'm I'm gonna be the woke donkey and all right can continue. Different people have different things. I've also started using this app, this app that I wanna love, but like it's really it really needs some polish. Oh okay, so I'm gonna write this down. And then you'd see the guts of the bathtub, the back of the bathtub in there. I'm constantly, I don't know, maybe we could try this for a week for fun. Like I I bought two years of ivory yesterday before I'd even use the app. And all I knew was I needed to be wherever the snake wasn't.

Yes, please. No, no. I'm not gonna listen to that. And then I it's so fun to me to get an image. Yeah, yeah. Show? Yeah, that's so each of us has a very so now my kid loves Fletch. I know. It's afterwards where I can't stop thinking about all of the ways that I was absolutely terrible and fucked up and let everyone around. And he shows this, it looks kinda like the um Elric and Melnobone kind of like symbol for chaotic evil, all these arrows pointing out. There's this thing you keep the tape that you keep playing over and over in your head. Dutchman, I don't know. And they don't hurt really. Oh yes, yes. Well that what I'm saying. Is it like you know what I mean? It's like I have l I dream about airports a lot.

And there was no cheating involved. Sometimes you know how I love a reframe. I do not want to hang out with this guy. Well, that's the point of lifting the weights, is you're lifting more This actually feels like bear. There's a rattle. It has cost me so much money in aggravation over the years and it's brought me very little joy. So what I took it was like could because I became so fascinated with this, much to the I think frustration and And she gave him a little warm bath. What? That's like that's like uh pillow embroidery wisdom, huh? I got again Sir Central art and drawing and last night. You guys want to see a sick kick flip? Can you pinpoint what it is you are dreading or hope or worried about w when you're anxious?

That's I I think when we talk about things in our life like stress, for example, Yeah, but there are immediate consequences if you fuck that up. I don't know. What was it we did that for? Okay, that is what please do that again. Oh sorry, sorry, sorry. Oh it kind of almost looks like a Bob Ross painting. Please read the description. Um and I I I was in fact sharing a hotel room with Kathy Campbell, who is the arbiter of the relay FM trivia questions. Um totally tangential. Would you please read me this uh promoted tweet I received a few days ago? Just west of and below freeze. It it's you're it it's like um what's gonna try where I won't have to talk to people? You tell me, I want to tell you very specifically what and I said this in the I think in the app Well we didn't want to call him something else.

He didn't need a lap. Oh, okay. I thought I thought I thought it would be disjointed and weird. Okay, so Chicken McDonald's from the 20s, love that. I had it. Not a night terror. And then I walked by something and it was like it was an Egyptian, a history of Egyptian artifacts, but it was I he has a name. Mm-hmm. You follow? Yes, but I am cheating and looking at this Like it's it doesn't it's just that it's just this was this I' And if it takes a model with arrows to make me see that in a way my brain can absorb, like I I really like that. And I because my uh as previously stipulated, my dreams are very impressionistic and kind of Nah. And you can see some fingers there. Um he has this basking rock over on the other side.

And so but that access panel was through the closet in my room. Mm-hmm. It's shaking this one. I didn't cheat. Yeah, I can send this to you. Right. I just like just slipping Grey's anatomy reference. It's a uh okay, so mm, do you know why you have to do it? Billy Pilgrim is unstuck in listen. Like how would you know that? Um and so I love him so much. And I now it didn't occur to me till yesterday. I always forget how flat he is. Uh um, I love this one. Wait, how big was the snake? And then then they crush your stamps. I feel like I saw a lot of Mike Pence. I uh Hey. Ray. And the way I said it to Adam and Scott, Scott and Adam, was I said, um I like I said, in retrospect This don't say it same this I look at this and I'm like, oh yeah, I've had the weird plane.

Now, what we came out with instead does look a little bit like a Dekiriko or a Brock. I'm a curator, I curate. Anxiety is uh OCD, like all these different things. You fundamentally can't aim awayness-based motivation. And the notion is that over time, if you start doing that regularly and are honest about it, you'll start to derive a better feeling about the associations between sleep. And um that because I am a little bit of a word, I'm more attracted by words than like stars and numbers. It's then when you go to analyze or whatever, you'll see like you had the strongest, you had the the most positive feelings this time of day. These are generated uh haikus generated from the EPUB version of the body keeps the score.

Um and no, no, it was just I found a recipe that was like, you know, uh rubbing alcohol. And you um and you put that in, you can mix it with your soil. I think they probably do a lot of hand stuff, but I think like how could you ever be comfortable sleeping in a hammock for more than like a short nap? The spike's so sharp, it hurts my heart. I'm very strong. No, I don't think that that name is Oh yeah. And n the main reason I am late to things is You're gonna get DMs about that. I love it. You know, and Gruber's talked about this more than I have, but like pr I don't understand. Well, boyfriends just like your dad. I say, okay, well, right now, I have positive Hey Alex, let's talk about let's talk about your dreams, baby.

I can't get anything good here. They're poison. As you should. He was judged, judged, judged. And eventually what I put in there was um And the bathtub faucet part was like basically, you know, Oh yeah, I have that three times. Uh a sad man sitting naked and alone in the first class cabin of a flight. Um yeah it's it it is now the thing that helps me travel Worry, anxiety, fear, and panic are flight things. Now is it making sense to you when I say because they you bring it up and you're like, oh, it's one of these. This this is probably some Germans very specific train kink. And the amazing part, what's the ma sorry, there is a naked man who has, depending on how you count it, two to six legs.

Great life act so far. Okay. Yep. And I can also do that with myself. Look at this graphic I'm sending to. Some people like a candle or a fucking bell or an iPhone app, but like Do you not remember when we had to make our own hand sanitizer? I have that plenty at home. What what you're saying here is TK link will be provided for where to go to see these images. I want to see the computer lizard. Well you can if you want, but start me. And Alex, I just want to point out while we're looking at this. Um because of course probably Property Brothers, I'm guessing. I'm and it's not a cross for a puzzle. What? Hey, else I don't know. Is it just a more general existential angst? He would spin plates and wave his hands.

And she had a barrier. And I don't know, this might sound subtle. And that becomes talk about coercive, that becomes a way where you like coerce yourself into awayness. That's a good movie. Yeah, yeah. Okay, here we go. That's there there's a rattle. Oh no. Well, oh and beautiful clouds. I don't know what that is. And that's gonna send you straight down uh Sur Brienne's Hill. Oh, so good. Yeah, I said something to you I think that may not have made sense, but I think something happened with my I get crazy focused. Wish I could deal with this in a wholesome way. And to cut a long story short, it's just it's kind of interesting that it it seems to touch on a lot of the systems and organs that we associate with This is the haiku it generated from that uh piece.

Like that kind of thing where you're or flashlight apps where you're like there's a land grab. You can hear the crowd. Awayness is just like it that we're well we're do you follow what I'm saying? Mr. Where will they be in show notes? Part of the ritual is you scrape it off with a razor blade, make a tea, drink it, vomit, and then trip. Oh shit, Alex. Oh well I I well what my thing is I don't Oh I'm sorry, you know what? Yep. Please, please. You know, uh one of my bits is like um people who don't procrastinate have a very difficult time understanding procrastination. I just ran it on uh uh Polyvegas. I'm I'm well how are you? Oh yeah. Oh, and it's got a clip glor point. I used to have those a whole lot, but I've been having regular d dreams that are either dreams or nightmares.

It's like I love it what you travel by by though. Mm-hmm. This is Do by Friday, a weekly challenge podcast. I'm not cheap about this stuff, but for some reason I was like, you know, actually matters not my favorite. Get who's getty images? I I know exactly the one. That's like a kind of like a food court, kind of like a Disney attraction. Mm-hmm. If you think about like stage fright, the the phrase we always used to hear, at least when I was just coming up, was you have like butterflies in your stomach. The junge weed. And of course, my response to that is, yeah, why don't I? Dutch. You ever feel a good plastic bag? Have I seen a grown man naked in real li I don't oh, I guess so, but not in a wholesome Were you weren't you a Confederate for something one time?

And I I think Kevin got him a backpack a long time ago. So what it was? But do you see if you go do you see a folder for in uh Yes, but the thing with actual stage fright where And the title of the article is Tor Have you ever heard of this? I I will. Gruber and I talked about this during that talk, this idea of like there's just some sites I won't link to because back in the day when I was a a How are you today, Merlin? It's kind of like cockkeep but dumb. It's got a little explanation of what that means in in their nomenclature. There's four images here. And it doesn't make you feel happy, but Oh Holy fucking shit. I'm sorry. I mean there's that thing that people do yeah, there's a I guess there's an app where you like Crazy Ivan my ass.

Which ironically enough, we usually give him a warm bath when he hasn't pooped in a while because it helps him poop. No no no. I should do something. The oh no, that I see, I see that and I absolutely think 1920s Oh my god, number two. Is that going to the Red Baron arcade to play asteroids? It is, it is to me because if you are an anxious person, awayness is a way of life. And things that feel like it could be that feeling aren't gonna save me forever. Um and that's I think what I like about this apple. Oh, but uh uh Mid-Journey is completely funded by Shit, when I saw everything everywhere all at once. What? Oh, like um So it did a good job with that. Um the first one is Like you go for what do you think is it better to describe what it is first or just read it?

I don't know. I'm not trying like here's the thing. I stole that bit from Bill Hader, but that's okay. But like then when you come back, you're like, oh, I really do like coffee. And I and and one reason I I Trauma's weight so heavy, holding it within the body, seeking healing grace. Them saying it reminds me of the scene where um it's not Premier Kissov, but whoever the Russian in the war room is So it's like that way you wouldn't have to build your own bash essentially? And also I I do have a question about open AI and why I can never get in and everybody else seems to always Can I find you some of my prompts for these? And in this instance, is like are you are you nervous about the show in general or talking to me?

I am indeed away from ge getting uh evicted or getting yelled at, but I'm Did he make a font? So and it's like, oh, that makes sense because it is all of those words and those prompts where y you know um And he goes, they do a tight shot of his face. I uh well and in front of my bigger shit than mushrooms and I've never had mushrooms I think that's a very that's an interesting direction because who doesn't want a secret room? Are you able to see alt? Um and It can. Yeah. I'm not against cheating. And even if that means just selecting an adjective that describes how you feel, if you do that the first few times you do that, it's gonna feel really weird. That would be fun. I I try to keep it in my pants, but I love our fucking lizard so much.

He's got a laptop but has he has he has no he has no uh lap, but he has a laptop. Of course they did. It there's so many things. You did. I'll put it in your queue. How how you snake sized Alex? But the practice of lifting those weights will make you, as they say, stronger. That's bullshit, but it's good. When we live in France, right? What I'm thinking of, oh man, the logo for bubbles is You know, a instead you say, well, I'll use the carrot whenever I can and use the stick when I have to. I'm having uh when you see a bad neighborhood, that is the sort of dog whistle that I just heard about Chic because This model is saying there's three things going on. This isn't like, oh yay, AI, give give uh have I think that's a good one.

I was thinking that. Well done. And being and being importantly being the the center of attention who sure better entertain us. The point being, what is the one thing I want to be right now? Um, haiku number one. Ready? Hey, you get that one. I mean I Yeah. No, I'm just reading the promotion. And if the name for that feeling this obviously we prefer it's not disassociation because you're not even sure who's feeling it. But it's a volunteer effort, I think, and it's funded through donations, supposedly. Will you put dead bodies on it? It's like her dream come true to make her friends jealous that she's in a Getty Images. Oh people tell you uh you know what their name is, call them that and don't be a dick.

I'm sorry, I stepped on your ship. Okay, and and and and it kinda does it looks like she basically just moved she didn't realize until too late that she just moved into a screensaver. You absolutely participated in cheating. Can I can I do a quick side rail here? Now I had a funny realization over the weekend. And sometimes I think in the same way that meditation became less difficult for me when I learned that trick of focusing on breath. And then um it will give me um a suggestion for how to what what to do about that. Um send to Q. I've had Hawaiian woodrose seeds. Oh you're do His name is Dennis. So far I understand that you have a clock and a terrible item. And like maybe you might look at a piece of rope through a window and you know what I'm saying?

A place in the universe where you don't want to be kind of becomes the universe. Like, and do this often enough. I'll find some good pana photos for you. This is really good. I'm on the beta. Left hand over here. And I I loved him more than anybody in the world. I do not want to be associated with what he does. Long story short, you've got like these four quadrants. And it has a little explanation. This is uh how to map your own nervous system, colon. What I'm trying to ask you is where will people go And you can't get the galactic grape probably. All the drugs are poison! What's it called? Well wait, which which one is oh is this my um 1920s Wait, really? It's the one that came out a couple weeks ago.

Relief in the sense of like of like uh Um this is this is Yeah. There's just like slats and anyways, and it is like a fishbowl because people just walk by your room all day long. You ready? And you're like, Yeah, he is. I'm not gonna go log on to Discord to use that. Why would I be mad at your Mike Pence boobies? And then she picks him up and says, Okay, it's 730, it's your bedtime, which she arbitrarily decided in October of 2019. Because when you hear lizards. Like that's that's how bad this fits go. Have you guys seen my bathtub hole? There's a booth. I get I'm really good. Ain't no context like a reframe context. Yes. Oh my god, I love the internet. Yeah, it's very frustrating to me. Um so I f guess I could try to find some way to make sure this endures beyond the It's very weird.

France, airports, and poverty. It is a s Towardsness is where I I wish. He talked about that like two years ago and I've just been kind of turning it over in my mind. I li I already like this app. Healing can be found Now that is that's somewhat impressive. And I think what's a lap? Like our relationship is so deeply toxic in so many ways. I honor the spirit of how you're doing this. I guess he's coming for Thanksgiving. I would like you to please I would like you to read aloud the alt text. No. The weather passes through you, but that's not who you are. Wait, really? So sometimes I just like to like not drink coffee Are there trophorians there just like hovering over the bat? I didn't pick I don't pick what it makes.

Like uh it's not a story, it was a feeling. I assume that was you verbatim reading your prompt And if I could ask, so I've got four images in one and one in another. I dream about airports. Oh that's good. I knew what to keep bringing my attention back to. Well this is the original the OG tank of hand sanitizing gel I made in twenty twenty that I occasionally You made a vat of hand sanitizer. It's this just in that funny bleep blurp font like in Gone Home. So you have to try. That's what I said. Um okay so you're ready for this one? Bleeploop language? And he has like if you remember an arrival, there's a very distinctive look. Well and it's the like you take one step because it's a little foggy or misty.

The I'm really glad that you said the name. But like if you're here with with your uh I'm calling him a Twink. Whether you like it or not. I have already have a you know rental house. I mean look at this. Yes. It's just that Uh hold on. No, that's David Allen. So that the the you see the one with Scarlet Johansson why she around all those cardboard boxes See that that was a bit. No, as somebody with anxiety, I know this is kind of a strange question. Uh he says, what's this guy says, Malcolm Motion? Oh my god. What's the top one under dorsal vagal? What is bringing you to the polyvagals? Well really mostly what was there, 'cause you can't describe the feeling. I'm strong. It's like Tinky Winky goes to Lord of the Rings.

Oh my god. I don't want to see the note cards. I am just saying that I didn't do it in this particular instance. Well, because this week's challenge involves uh The hor It's very moist in here. I I assume that there is a I hate you. And in fairness, I did then tweak them until I got results that felt like I thought you said you had ADHD And he he wasn't he couldn't, you know, he was whatever that word is, where it he Specifically, I think it's because The um the um but da ba da ba da ba da but but there was they were talking about how get did you hear about how Getty Images is suing Like, how would you know that? I would like your help with that. We should do a prisoners exchange. I shall tell you right off the dome, this reminds me of a wonderful painting by So this is a tunnel and a tinky winky path.

Remember the massage chairs at the No, I oh You can feel the vibes. I I never knew that anxiety was also a a symptom of depression. Yeah, I have uh I have And like when you are literally going on stage or literally going into a meeting. My doctors talked to me in the past about what's called the vagus system. To ruminate on it excessively, I don't know if that's great, but if you were to say to yourself, well. That's why I have When distilleries started pivoting to hand san you don't remember that at all from Bando accidentally pooped on the steps last week and he felt bad about it. It is not pretty. Also there's just a slightly like okay, so like if you were to cover up Wait, wait hang on, hang on, John.

Like you would see a booth, not quite a kiosk like a jewelry or iPhone repair kiosk, but like the you know, a counter. There's no peak, no top in sight, and you just keep you keep pumping and pumping and pumping and like trying. Three words. Well you know like uh he was basking I love when he basks La la la. Bedroom in Arles, uh eighteen eighty eight. I uh I I see I don't know. Oh his eyes! Now you can see where I added that to cue it better. And then but I entered that walked into that part of it and discovered that there was a second airport that was inside. I can write up what happened. Uh no, I'm this is I I d I don't know. Oh he's the OG. Do you know why? Can I ask a procedural question?

We should see the thing I'm doing right now. Challenge challenge. So it wrong, you're doing it wrong, you're doing it very wrong Should I go to the next one? Which one are we doing? Why do you why do you save that to open on the shows at a bit now? Uh-huh. One of the things with ADHD, I just always reiterate, is that Mm-hmm. Please read it aloud. Have you seen this app called How We Feel? Oh, I know I didn't then I didn't finish. Like I'm so upset by the way fingers look in so many of these images, but it's weirdly perfect. And um, oh my god, I love him so. Yeah, that's All it was is a door. I love this. Can I tell you my life hack? So like, but you know how we talk about fight or flight? They're from my plants, and I think primarily especially for my plant food.

You ever feel a good plastic bag? Yeah. If you saw this if you saw this in a movie, you would be anticipating that some some shit was about to go down Why are you a clown? Towardsness and awaitness motivation. Well I just caught myself feeling a thing. We had a VAT of AI this week. I wonder if his name is some kind of a pun on being abandoned. That's where the heat lamp is and the U UV lamp is. Whoa. You I'm uh okay. I don't know how to work the Twitter My problem is everything before the emergency and everything after the emergency. Great. And I'm like, okay. You want to start me with yours or you won't want me to start? Everybody got it, but it has uh like a usurious um charge to use it. Because some of them are pretty good.

I'm thinking about like the right hand, right? Well that was all that was all a bit. I don't know. But if Bando could just deliver it to you, he'd be your he'd be your uh your lizard mule. Yeah, he was supremated. It's hard to tell what the swoopy thing is. Like I think the monorail yeah, that that's my mystery. Um I mean so i historically we think of like if you think about like well, you know, how how about this? And like well realizing that may not make it immediately go away, but now that suitcase has a handle. I'm very it's humid. Oh no we should say the difference between uh just the basic stable diffusion He goes, our source was the New York Times. But by that I mean like glasses. Ah ah But most of my success is from Anxiety is a characteristic of like three different mental and emotional things I struggle with.

Towardness and awayness, motivation are fundamentally asymmetric. I put it in my aloe plant. And it it became my hobby on and off for a few weeks. Well a lap is is this area when you're seated. Look at this exquisite creature. That's my first tripping experience. Honestly, do you know what I'm talking about? Yeah, but like what Oh god I dream about the Ringley Museum in Sarasota. He has a name. See, isn't that satisfying? No, no, no, no. And a lot of it is that kind of like Have you ever had a snake crawling by your bed in a dark room? And then CBT like, you say to yourself, Well, how's that make me feel? I read a lot of these things. Just for just ju just a treat. Oh gosh Yes. And the thing where like you know, you learn one of the I guess intermediary skills of Yeah.

His eyes Maybe further further than that. Like any God, this is such a big deal on the rectus. The body keeps the score He is unstuck in time. I will tell you the way I took the challenge because I did it better. I think that's one reason that I suspect anyway, that certain locations keep reappearing in my dreams. Get your chicken exhaust. Like we mustn't feel constrained by these things. I don't know. Natural selection. I'm I I'm sorry, I'm I'm jumping above the stove. He made all those tiny little pixel fonts back in the day. Not only do you get the data of your honest reactions to things, but you're also habituating yourself Okay, whoa, it looks like photos And it's wonderfully unnerving. No.

Awayness. What I care about is finding a suitcase to me isn't is much more useful when it has a handle. Because because this image we have Yeah. Gosh. I I have sent you four photographs that Oh Yeah. Mom, stay out of my bathtub hole! What's the prom what's the what's the prompt for this one? I guess that's what airports are, but And to me he was just my pal John. Please. service is really doing the full court press. Oh I posted on Mastodon, Alex, just for what it's worth. Uh this is uh there's a computer and a lizard in it and a Christmas tree that's just been undecorated. Um negative, negative comedy. All the drugs are poison. This is um uh are we alright are we still in the second one? Oh yeah.

Are you okay? Okay. I'm sorry. Oh no no no. Holy shit, this is up my alley, Alex. So we've got towardsness and awayness. Yeah. Actually I think he gave it a pretty good review on Letterboxd. You might be in my carass, you piece of shit. Okay, well, my good man. We did distinguish in the after show last week that this is I and later. If this were easy for me, it would already be done. I'm gonna I'm gonna And it means that you're on a first floor If let's say for example you're in uh fight or flight or Is that running through a plate glass window? But then to flip that, there is a part of me that always says, well, why don't you just do your work? How do you feel right now? But like I I I don't think my dreams are not stories.

Ever everyone should. And then there's this thing that's kind of like the a booth at a restaurant. I know I took a front. From Bill You have what's called I'm not gonna spray science sauce on this. Just drift it in the wheel. Oh yeah, oh this is good. Is that what it's called? Yeah. Well yeah, but like something I I once re I I once Oh I see it. I ha have always had this little timer And That You think that's how I want to be? And now I'm just an old man with my palm malls, poti weak. Yeah. That's he's having Schwitz. Well, are you able to see alt text? Like if you really look at individual aspects of this, it's kind of fascinating. Um Like if you tend to like. And then when your attention drifts, well the point is it that that's why you're doing it.

I'm sure they're lovely. It is so my shit, Alex. Okay. Of all the things in the world, of course, it is Alex Cox who owns something called a time timer. Sidebar. I want to be away from the snake. I'm gonna go full lifestyle Lloyd Dobbler on this shit Mm-hmm that does go through your colon, the polyvagal theory. Oh But really the tweet that I did last night is is probably my best uh Yeah. When when you're um and well late to period things, so don't be gender prescriptive. In fact, It Like it's an interface to okay. And the second one is nineteen so so I don't know what I'm just saying. Fr Whoa. Well but it I would always with a little bit of fifth Harry Potter. I just sent you another one. We we have all the But it also kind of looks like a mirror.

But you know what's amazing about that tunnel, Alex? Now uh go go off, Kate. Where it it looks like his eyes are closed, but his eyes aren't closed. Uh There's there's a bit to every bit I'm sorry, uh uh we don't say that. G I think we should start a podcast about our feelings. So did you if you Can I say the latest thing real quick? It's one it's one thirty somewhere. Like the the It is a Well, there's consequences. But I do find it useful to have a model for things like that. Midjourney seems to create the coolest results. It's such a weird look, because it looks like it has the M So Yeah, I wish you would. I totally agree with you. So far, it's not really helping. I mean it's the classic the classic bando Oh god, it's amazing.

And m I don't know if this is a a a very consequential distinction. Just my own treat. Oh I'm I'm sure I'm gonna do m m uh more of these. So so so think about this. Yeah. Like I buy stuff. Like where you're like slowly like getting more okay with it. High or low energy? Uh yeah. A clock. I would pay that for reader. What's the difference between positive and negative motivation? There's no opt in and nothing to buy. Like I almost think that curating is Yeah. Third person or first person Because otherwise it just shows, you know. Right hand over here is like, yeah, but does that is that what it feels like? But um so but that Is it just the is it the m the emotion that feels dangerous? Um here's you, ready?

Oh, what was the thing? But um You don't feel that We should do that thing like where you know I can't get anything fucking good here. Yeah. And you said Do I know why why? Well I I just sit there and they come out. She's wearing a she's wearing a helmet that is also a flower pot containing a ficus. Uh I'm drinking iced tea. Like it has a slightly like diminishing perceived effect. I bet they'll and it got some kind of weird apple. He's unstuck in time. But I love the idea of like uh the way I maybe you said this already, but illustrate your dreams. Do you see the similarity though? What time of the day is it? Okay, fix it on the that part. Mm-hmm. Yeah. No charge a lot I didn't think about him as any I mean, he was really into X Men.

It's it's almost like you've been climbing a hill. You get that idea. Dissociation. I also use rubbing alcohol now to kill flies, which I'm pretty excited about. This is this is him this is him just in his hammock He's not you know Yeah, they do a thing Have you ever heard of glass sort of scattering His his name is apparently from a Ricky Montgomery song. No So for example this thing that I sent you right now And um It'll be the topmost link. Just sent you another one. I'm just gonna read the alt text. I had to put somebody down on the form so I put you down. I am by myself at the office. It's an area that gets created. Poison! This is not a five paragraph essay. And so the uh and and this one I dream about obviously dark rides at Disney World like any help.

You had the most negative feelings on these days of the week. Can I read you um two of the the um Thank you. Well he's got look at all those feet and legs. Well, on the one hand, this has been an ongoing But then on the other hand, if I do walk out on stage I might die. We recorded last night. Or talk about the fact that I'm there. I'm loose! Think about like, let's just put it this way, on like the west side of the house was my room. You just don't remember it. So there were some boobies. You would take one step, your heel I could use it. Away Please. It looks so dny Villeneuve. What I if you wouldn't mind. And plus it's very, very long. I would pay more than that for a reader. But uh later on.

That's why I can't Do you know what I mean? I'm a little bit late Well it makes me feel really anxious. And you tell me those aren't fingers. But can I read the final one? Um You're probably anxious. When you're trying to get somebody away from something Did you ha you you actually had night terrors? Especially the expression sort of like yeah. Because sometimes I I freeze. Like where does the lap go when you stand up? Because you didn't try to make it make sense. Are you just opening the bucket? Well, where is that? And all of that is okay. Huh. How are you, Alex? State one lily pad at a time. Can we say that? I don't know why we never tried this in three years. I what I I uh Uh I I do have the prompt The next one's a little bit silly, it's a little bit of a stunt.

I um It's hard to describe, obviously. This is life. That's why that's why he's banned Amando on Twitter. These are these You just But you know, if I could say like So That's where you put your Hare Krishna's. Check it out now, Alex. But The why You're doing it because it drifts. Yes. And that Absolutely. Let's sum it up in the carrot and the stick. You are my veil. Do you know what I mean? Look at those. It sounds emo. This is this. He loved nice guys. Just this is uh Van Gogh's And it's Like it raw transcript